Invisible

Written By:sometimestheycallmejackie
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BPOV

I looked up from my locker and saw him standing next to her with his hand on her shoulder. She was talking a mile a minute as he watched her every move. I stared at them wondering if she noticed him staring at her. I saw her look up at him with a huge smile and I could have sworn that his heart grew as wide as her grin. They linked hands shortly after that and started walking towards me. I watched them as he nodded in my general direction before they disappeared down the hall together. I continued rummaging through my locker when I felt someone put a hand on my shoulder.

“Hey Bells,” I turned around and smiled when I saw my best friend, Jacob Black standing there with his girlfriend, Vanessa.

“Hey guys,” I said as I closed my locker and faced them.

“You heading down to the music room?” He asked as I nodded.

“Yeah I’m supposed to be presenting today.” I said as we started walking.

“Is Edward playing with you?”

“Yeah he’s playing the piano for me.”

We walked towards the door and Vanessa grabbed my hand.

“Nessie what’s wrong?” I asked as she sighed.

“You’re not invisible Bella.” She simply said before she walked away.

“What?” I asked as I looked up at Jacob.

“She’s not wrong. Someone else sees you too. Even if they don't realize it yet.” He said as he pointed into the classroom. I followed his finger and saw him staring at me. I gave him a shy smile before telling Jacob goodbye. I walked in the room and took my seat beside him.

“Are you nervous about today?”

“Nope, I’m ready.” I said as he nodded.

“You never did tell me the lyrics.”

“That’s because they’re a secret.” I said as he laughed.

“Tanya thinks the melody is great by the way.”

“Tell her I said thanks.” I whispered before I turned away from him completely.

“Alright everyone let’s quiet down,” Mrs. Marsh said as she walked into the room, “Okay let’s see who is going first...ah Bella and Edward.” She said as she looked up at us.

“We’re ready.” Edward said as he stood up and walked towards the piano.

I quietly stood up and walked towards the front of the room.

“Are you ready Bella?” Mrs. Marsh asked as I nodded.

“I’m more than ready.” I said as she gave me a quick smile before sitting down at her desk.

“Whenever you two want to start.” She said I turned to Edward.

He nodded to me as I picked up my guitar. I started strumming as he started playing.

She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile

She'll never notice how you stop and stare whenever

She walks by

And you can’t see me wantin you the way you want her

But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you

She don't even know you

She's never gonna love you like I want to

You just see right through me but if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just Invisible

There's a fire inside of you that cant help but shine through

She's never gonna see the light

No matter what you do

And all I think about is how to make you think of me

And everything that we could be

And I just wanna show you

She don't even know you

She's never gonna love you like I want to

You just see right through me but if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just Invisible

Like shadows in a faded light

Oh we're Invisible

I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize

I just wanna show you she don’t even know you

Baby let me love you let me want you

You just see right through me

But if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

She cant see the way your eyes light up when you

I stared at Edward as I sang the end of the song. He never took his eyes off of me as the words hit him. I watched as recognition hit him and I felt my heart break when he looked away. I finished the song and bolted from the room, regretting everything.

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EPOV

I stared at Tanya as she talked about some stupid cheerleading competition they had to go to this weekend. I couldn’t stop thinking about how breathtakingly beautiful she was and how freaking lucky I was to have her in my life. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her for even a second. She looked up at me with a smile on her face and I felt my heart expand.

“Let’s go baby,” She said as I took her hand and we started walking down the hall. I looked towards the lockers and saw my music partner, Bella Swan, staring at us. I nodded at her as she smiled. I wondered if she was nervous about presenting our song for class but I didn’t dwell on it for long because Tanya pulled me up against her and crushed her lips against mine. We finally pulled apart and she whispered a quick goodbye before walking away to catch up with the quaterback. I walked into the room and took my usual seat as I waited for Bella to show up. I saw her standing in the hall talking to Black and his girlfriend Vanessa. I got along with Black…he was a pretty okay guy and his girlfriend wasn’t too bad either. She was friends with Tanya so we all hung out together from time to time. I watched as Vanessa whispered something to Bella then Black pointed to me. Bella turned to look at me as I smiled. She smiled shyly at me before telling Black goodbye. She took her seat beside me and I turned to her.

“Are you nervous about today?” I asked.

“Nope, I’m ready.” She said as I nodded to her.

“You never did tell me the lyrics.”

“That’s because they’re a secret.” She said as I laughed.

“Tanya thinks the melody is great by the way.”

“Tell her I said thanks.” She whispered before she turned away from me completely.

Mrs. Marsh walked in after that and called us up to the front of the room. I sat down in front of the familiar piano and waited for Bella to get ready. She started playing and I listened as she sang the words.

I could hear a certain familiarity in her words as images began to fly through my head, moments in the halls when I would look up to find Bella staring at me with this look of longing in her eyes. I listened to her words and realization hit me as the song ended. Bella Swan was in love with me. I stared at her as she sang the ending to me before I finally turned away. This was too much for me to handle. I heard her cough as she turned back towards the class. She thanked everyone before she bolted out of the room. I turned to Mrs. Marsh who nodded to me before I took off after her.

“BELLA!” I called as she kept running towards the doors.

I followed her out of them and saw her running for her pick up truck. I kept running till I got to her truck. She was trying to open the door when I ran up to it and slammed it shut.

“Edward let me go.” She said as tears fell from her eyes.

I turned her to face me and she looked up at me with tears in dark brown eyes. I’d never noticed how dark they were before.

“Bella,”

“I shouldn’t have written that. I’m sorry.” She said as she tried to pull away from me.

“I’m glad you did.”

“What?” She said as she looked up at me.

“I love Tanya…I do. But she doesn’t love me like that.”

“Of course she does Edward.” She said as I shook my head.

“She told me that she could never really love me because she wasn’t looking for that. She was only looking for someone to keep her from being lonely and somewhere down the road I’m the one who fell in love with her.”

“Why are you telling me this?” She asked as I sighed.

“I didn’t notice it. You I mean.”

“Okay?”

“I didn’t noticed how you noticed me until today. You see me everyday…you see how I look at Tanya and you look at me in that exact way. A way that she will never look at me.”

“She does sometimes.”

“Sometimes, but not how you do. Bella I see that you love me and I want to experience that first hand.”

“But what about?”

“I’m tired of being the only one in that relationship…I don’t want to be the only one in love anymore.”

“You barely know me.” She said as I laughed.

“I know you better than I know her. I know that you love to watch crappy horror movies just to make fun of them. I know that you’re secretly jealous of Jacob and Nessie because they found true love so young. I know that music makes up who you are and songs are the best way that you express yourself. I know that you want someone to kiss you goodnight and someone to tell you they love you just as much as you love them. I know that you love to wear two different colored chucks because it sets you apart from everyone else. I know that you adore your big brother because he’s your hero. And I know that you just want to be happy. I want to make you happy. I want to get to know the person that you are Bella. I want to be the person who loves you unconditionally. I want to be the one you want beside you when your dreams come true.” I said as she stared up into my eyes.

“I want you to be that person Edward.”

“Then let me be that person. I know this is sudden but I feel like this is right.”

I leaned down and pressed my lips gently against hers as she wrapped her arms around my neck.

We pulled apart and she smiled at me.

“Alright.” She whispered as I picked up and spun her around.

“You wont regret this.”

“I hope not.” She whispered as I leaned down to kiss her once more.

As I Am

Written by: Silva Jupiter
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POV: Alice

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“She doesn't know the word 'impossible.' Don't care where I've been and doesn't care where we're goin' to. She takes me as I am, and that ain't easy. She's beautiful. So beautiful. And sometimes I think she's truly crazy… and I love it” – Pat Monohan “Her Eyes”

I hated how everyone always got it all wrong. Hated the look in his eyes when he guessed their thoughts or felt their sneaking suspicions about us. Hated the stupidity of their thoughts and their inability to look beyond that which was most obvious. But most of all, I hated his own beliefs about us.

We both knew the fleeting suspicions of others. The naïve beliefs of these simplistic humans generally tended to amuse us – nothing was more hilarious then listening to Edward share with us the latest gossip on the Cullen clan – but today I could tell it weighed heavily on my husband, there was more to his pained look than his usual attempt to control his bloodlust. Today he was distraught, and waves of his uncertainty mixed with pain washed over me as he shifted in his seat next to me.

“Jazzy?” I queried, my eyes never moving from our history professor’s face, but my heart and mind were solely for him. “What…”

I never had to finish my questions when it came to talking with him. Jasper always understood. Always comprehended. Whether it was from his astounding ability or from the bond we shared, or perhaps a complex mixture of both, our conversations could always remain practically silent or half-formed as we both understood what the other needed or wanted to say before any words were actually spoken. Our relationship was not like Rose and Emmett’s, or Carlisle and Esme’s; it was complicated and unique, rather like our own strange abilities. We were a novelty among our kind and our love was a novelty among all other loves, stronger than Romeo and Juliett’s and certainly more lasting.

His blond tresses covered his troubled dark eyes as they flicked towards me almost imperceptively before he returned his attention (or so it appeared) to the teacher’s monotonous lecture once more. The crescent scars on his cheek tightened as he squared his jaw in a gesture of annoyance before he, tight-lipped, replied, “Nothing you should concern yourself with Alice. Now pay attention, you wouldn’t want to miss out on learning all about the major causes of the Great Depression.”

I snorted, a rather unladylike and unusual gesture for me, and trilled back, “Oh believe me, I know all about the Great Despression. I am NOT likely to forget about the one time when shopping was almost impossible to come by. Now what I am concerned with right now is what is causing my Jasper’s great depression?”

A slight loosening of his jaw alerted me to the effectiveness of my pathetic pun as he relaxed slightly, but his fists began to clench than unclench a sure sign of his irritation.

A sigh of impatience escaped and I counted to three in order to restrain myself from beating him out of his silly mood. “Jazz… just tell me what it is “

I could feel his guard slipping; his reluctance to share with me his own pain was giving away. I smiled in anticipation of finally figuring out what it was that had him in such a slump when…

“How could you?”

I recognized my voice as it dripped heavily with anger and malice. I was shocked to see that I was yelling at Edward, my dearest and most favorite brother. What had he done to deserve this…

The image flipped again and a new future shot up.

“Jazz. Jazz. Jazz…” I was holding my love now, his platinum blonde locks fanned over my thighs and his face a picture of content as I slowly stroked his features again and again, tracing each and every scar on his beautiful face.

More images assaulted me, but these frames were so quick that not even my vampiric reflexes could comprehend them. A chair, something gold, a rush of euphoria, the smell of rose blossoms…

I kept my face carefully controlled as I came to, not wanting to alert those around me. Humans were not very observant as a whole, but we had underestimated them before (in the case of Bella and a few other’s) and I wasn’t about to take that chance again. Inside I was shaking, confused and scared, but outwardly I was simply bored in class, just another student like all my fellow classmates.

My shaky foundation was instantly soothed by his calming aura. Every time I had a vision it was like this. It was always so… terrifying to have an out-of-body experience like this. Seeing the future was not like seeing your past. Things changed so rapidly that it was almost like sitting in a room with a movie running in front of you on permanent fast forward. If they would slow down and let me really see - if my visions weren’t always so damn cryptic - if having a gift like this hadn’t cost me so much in the long run… maybe it wouldn’t be so bad. You’d think I would have gotten used to the feeling of it by now, but it appeared I would never.

Jasper was always here for me when I got back, which was always what got me through. I smiled, forgetting the indecipherable future that awaited us as I basked in his masculine features. He was so perfect, so unbelievably right for me…

“It was Edward…” He muttered. Huh? Edward… what… my mind took a 16th of a second to catch up before I recalled that he had been about to reveal the cause of his distress before my visions had caught up with me. “We got in a fight last period about...” here he snuck a guilty side-glance at me as I stared at him, purposefully ignoring the still-lecturing teacher, “… love. I said some things I shouldn’t have about him and Bella and he, uh, targeted our relationship in return. It was all very childish. I shouldn’t have taken it so personally.”

I continued staring at him, mulling over his words, before I prompted him to continue, “But you did…”

He huffed, finally turning to face me fully, giving me the glimpse of his chiseled and breathtaking features – God I loved this man – and replying, “He said that our relationship was too one-sided. He said… he said… that I needed you more than you needed me.”

My breath caught in my throat. Not that I needed to breathe anyways, but the shock of Edward ever making such a ridiculous assumption was enough to shatter my façade. “HE WHAT!?!?”

All activity in the classroom ceased, several students starting from their daydreams and one or two leaping up from real dreams, at the sound of my shrill tone.

“Oops.” I muttered, catching the professor’s disapproving glare as he turned his back from the board in order to reprimand me.

“Ms. Cullen, is there something you would like to share with the class?” the comical bob of his mustache completely ruined the intimidating effect he was attempting to give off, but I quelled my laughter and prepared to give the performance of my life in order to get out of this one.

“Oh! I am so infinitely sorry Mr. Cadswack. I only just now comprehended the vast implications of the actions of those in charge of the Stock Market during the time period. I can’t believe that they could… that they could display such greed. It is so disturbing!”

He blinked, his moustache still quivering, but in a slightly less agitated manner, before he finally replied, “Just keep your amazement…” he raised his eyebrows at this, but I could tell he had accepted my flimsy excuse, “to yourself from now on.”

“Yessir Mr. Cadswack. Most certainly. I apologize that I got so carried away.” I flattered him by batting my eyelashes and flashing my flawless smile his way. However, the instant he gave in and turned his back to me my face fell back into a frown and I whirled back to my husband, demanding answers of him with my eyes.

He was smiling crookedly, obviously amused at my performance, but the smile didn’t quite reach his eyes and I could still feel his own troubled emotions as they overflowed from his own consciousness and seeped out into the world.

“Like I said, it was a childish argument. We both were foolish.” He mumbled, taking my hand in his as he attempted to calm me from my fury.

“Edward had no right,” I fumed, “to say such a thing. I don’t care what you said about him or Bella.”

“Perhaps he did, or perhaps he didn’t.” Jasper turned away, still holding my small hand clasped in his. I could hear the finality in his tone, his reluctance to continue with the conversation, but I was not finished yet. I knew now why he was so upset and it infuriated me to no end. Why did people always make that assumption? Why did they always think that our relationship was an endless line of him needing me and me simply loving him despite all his faults. Sure he wasn’t perfect but neither was I! I need him just as much as he supposedly “needed” me. I was tired of this nonsense. It was time to put a stop to it. Right now.

“Jasper Whitlock. Look at me.” I demanded, flicking my hair out of my eyes so I could see him clearer. His eyes were guarded as were his emotions, none of them leaked out to affect me and as a result I couldn’t tell exactly what effect my next few words would have, “Don’t you EVER… I repeat, EVER… believe that. How could you? After everything…” our kind was made to be perfect, but even we faltered every now and then and I could feel my own voice faltering as I struggled to come up with the right words to explain just how desperately I needed him. The mere thought of life without him filled me with a despair so deep that even my cold dead heart felt pain.

“Alice…” he whispered, his voice dipping back into the southern accent he used to have as he also struggled to assuage my own grief.

“I’m not finished.” I regained my momentum and let the words flow naturally, like they were supposed to, “I love you. I know what they think and I know it seems like sometimes we are one-sided, especially when we spend every day working on YOUR problems with resisting or forgetting the past or whatever it is that is assaulting your always-troubled mind, but it is not like that. I help you because I love you and because I need you around because without you I wouldn’t be able to survive. You were the only thing - the first thing - that got me through my newborn years. You helped me become who I am today and you weren’t even there in person! Even as an idea, as an intangible dream, you were so vital to my life. I help you now to make up for those days when I was lost and all that I had was a vision of your face. I help you now because you have loved me for who I am, which is more than anyone has ever done for me. Don’t you dare say our love is one-sided. Don’t you dare say I don’t need you. How could you ever think that? What can I do to prove…”

“Nothing more. You have nothing more to prove.” He insisted, his onyx eyes locked on my own as he spoke, “It’s just… I sometimes wonder how you can care so much. Why you care so much. You have given me more than I could ever give to you. What have I done to deserve your love? How can I make it seem like it’s me comforting you and not you helping me all the time?”

I shook my head mournfully, would he never get it? He didn’t have to do anything. He was so indescribably perfect as he was. I loved him as he was. Sure, he could be better at resisting the bloodlust, but he was doing such a fantastic job with that as it was. Sure, he could have more faith in himself, but he was Jasper and Jasper would never be able to be certain of his every action. His self-consciousness was a result of his troubled past, a past I would have done anything to take away from him and a past which was regretfully fraught with pain and peril. However, it was the path that brought him to me so I could only hate it so much before I would turn around and silently thank the God who guided him from it and brought him to that small diner in Philadelphia.

“You’re unbelievable, you know that?” I questioned, my hand reaching up to cup his face. I had been resisting touching him for an hour but now it was too much. I wanted to hold him so badly, to take away his pain with a few kisses and a hug, but I couldn’t right now and it was killing me. “You are so perfect, in every way. No one notices when you help me because you’re the only one I would ever show my pain to. You are not such a coward… you will not and cannot hide your true face and your true feelings from the world. Your pain is obvious, mine is only behind closed doors. When I succumb to the visions, you are always there for me when I finally snap out of it. When I get too melancholy or fail to find clues to my past you are always there to help me. You are my encouragement and my main support. Without you I would fall and probably never rise again. I… words fail to describe how much you truly mean to me.”

A radiant feeling of completeness, of joy beyond comprehending, and of love overwhelmed me. I beamed, knowing the cause of that intoxicating emotion was my own husband as he let his emotions (as always) get the better of him. Students shifted restlessly in their seats as they too were swept up in the euphoria and I stifled a giggle as couples began to give each other goo-goo eyes from across the room. “Jazz… you might want to let up. The teenage hormones might get out of control.”

He glanced around at his handiwork before shrugging and smiling mischievously. I had only a tenth of a second before a stab of lust hit me like a brick and I crossed my legs and wiggled uncomfortably in my hard chair. Our peer’s reactions were far more comical. Guys all tried to cover their erections, notebooks coming down to rest over their crotches as they pretended to be organizing their stuff or taking notes. Girls fluffed their hair and began staring around. One rather alarming individual was even glancing at Mr. Cadswack flirtatiously from behind a shock of curly blonde hair.

The bell chose that moment to ring and I let out a whoop of laughter before I launched myself at Japser, latching my petite arms around his middle and kissing him on the cheek. “I love you Jazz. Don’t you ever forget it or doubt it.”

“I need you Alice, more than I need this useless heart of mine.” He grinned down at me as I refused to let go of him, holding him tightly to me despite the audience I’m sure were amassing.

“I know. Now let’s get going. I have some lecturing to do with Edward before we can spend a romantic night reassuring each other of our love.” With a lusty wink (apparently his ability had still not worn off yet… or maybe it had…) I danced of down the hall with my love right next to me.

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Falling In Love

Written By:sammie2
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Another day. They really were all starting to blend together. Life with no sleep was interesting. More interesting was that life as a vampire is almost kinda fun. Thanks to m adoptive family. The Cullens were amazing. Carlisle and Esme are like parents to me. Edward and Bella are happily married with a daughter (who is married to a werewolf Jacob); Jasper and Alice were married; as well as Rosalie and Emmett. Now the confusing part is that Jasper and Rosalie pretended to be twins because of how much they look alike and they have the last name Hale.

All of us pretended to be in high school while Carlisle was a doctor in town. It was strange going to school with all my family, yet at the same time it was very cool. We were always there for one another, and considering everyone at the school thought we were weird it did help to have someone there for us.

Like Edward, Bella, Rennesme, and Alice I had a 'special ability'. To be able to tell how two people felt about each other when they touched was very amusing. However, I would much rather of had Edward's power, which he teases me about anytime he 'hears' me thinking about it.

Luckily today he was on his way to school in his Volvo with Bella and Rennesme. I got stuck with Emmett and Rosalie in their jeep. Ever since I joined the family its been very hard for Jasper. With him being able to control emotions and my ability to feel how other people feel abut each other usually clash. Emmett however was my favorite brother so I have no problem driving with him.

"Sam, you know you could get your own car. I'm sure Carlisle wouldn't mind." Edward said as he approached the jeep.

"You nosy bother." I replied with a smirk on my face.

"Fine be stuck in Emmett's jeep. Tomorrow we'll all drive our own car and you'll feel left out." Edward said slyly as he turned towards Bella and grabbed her hand while they walked into school.

Rennesme walked up behind me. Out of all my siblings I always thought that she was the prettiest, most likely because she is half human and she has always been a sweetheart. When I first joined the family she was the one that helped me by showing me things that she had been through in her up bringing.

"He's just messing with you." She said under her breath low enough so that I could only hear.

I just kept looking at Edward and Bella I could feel the love they had for each other. Every time they touched I could feel how much they really do love each other. It made me wish that I had somebody that I could love like that. Even Rennesme has Jacob, even though he is a werewolf he is still considered part of are family. Especially considering him and Rennesme have been married for two years already.

History class came too soon. Rosalie and I had the class together. I must say that of all the Cullens she was the most judgmental. Unfortunately she sat behind me in that class which meant that I heard every comment that she said. Lucky enough no human ears could pic up what she was saying but that didn't stop me from saying stuff from under my breath as well.

We were in the middle of an argument about who would win the baseball game we were having this up coming weekend when our entire family walked in. Now I must say to have Edward, Bella, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rennesme all walk into your class you know that something important is about to happen. Or they have all lost it.

"Sorry to bother you Mr. Merritt, but there is a family emergency and Sam and Rosalie need to come with us immediately." Edward said to the teacher while looking at me and Rosalie.

Both of us stood up and looked at him confused. Then I heard Jasper whisper under his breath "Alice saw something." I finally looked at Alice for the first time and noticed that her eyes where glazed over and the only that she even made it here was that Emmett had been carrying her.

Outside of classroom we could finally talk. What all of this was about I had no idea, but I knew that it couldn't be good.

"This better be an emergency or else your in huge trouble." Rosalie turned to Emmett looked at him worried.

"Don't worry." Emmett told me while he kissed Rosalie on the forehead. "It's nothing huge. We received a call from Esme that Carlisle took care of these twin boys today. They were twenty years old and dying from brain cancer."

"That's horrible!" I mumbled under my breath.

"It truly is." Edward replied to me. "The thing is, both of the boys love Carlisle and he couldn't just let them die. He told there families that they did when in fact they really are in the process of becoming vampires."

Alice continued to have a glaze look in her eyes until finally we reached the cars.

"Alice will it be alright?" Bella asked nervously.

"It will. At first they will do anything the can to get away but after they realize that they are in no harm they come to accept it. It is incredible thought. They have just as much power to control their hunger as you did." She said to Bella once more.

This was so crazy. Two more members of the family. But what I loved was that they were closer to my age. I've been twenty for only a year and I will be for the rest of my existence but now I have someone just as new to share this with. But maybe....just maybe....I'll be able to find the one that I'm looking for.

It's a long shot I know, but two more additions to the Cullen family. It's a good thing that vampires don't sleep because then we really wouldn't have any room in our house.

Eclipse, 'Compromise' From Edward's POV

Written By:Claire-1875
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Eclipse. 'Compromise' Edwards P.O.VEverything was ready. Bella had her alibi in the form of a two day sleep over with 'Alice', that was easy enough. Her mind was slightly more at peace knowing that Charlie was fishing with Billy and that Angela, Ben, Mike and Jessica had gone to the concert. She also seemed almost comforted by the fact that in forty-eight hours, one way or another, this would all be over, as was i, somewhat at least. Now all we had to think about was tonight, i told myself. Bella and I, completely alone. Although i had spent the night with Bella many times before, all while Charlie was suitably unconcious, of course, i couldn't help feeling slightly apprehensive about tonight. The house would be totally empty apart from me and one very vulnerable human. A human whos scent was ever so dangerously addictive to me. The intensity of the way I felt about Bella, if i were being honest, still scared me slightly. I had never wanted, nor needed, anything so much in my entire exsistance. Everyday, the need and my passionate love for her grew. Nothing terrified me more than the thought that something might happen to her. Also, the underlining fear was always there that i would be the one to make it happen. Of course, I hid these feelings from Bella. I had to have her relax, and she was trying.
"For this one night, could we try to forget everything besides just you and me?" I had pleaded, staring into her eyes, trying to calm her with my own. " It seems like i can never get enough time like that. I need to be with you. Just you" The thought, although slightly intimidating, of having my Bella to myself for one whole night, was exactly what i wanted and needed right now.
And, now, as i sat in the passangers seat of her decrepit old Chevy, smiling to myself at her slow human pace, i could hear her heart quicken, and once again wished i could hear her mind.
As soon as Bella cut the engine, i was at her side. I opened her door and lifted her from the cab, eager to get into the empty house. I swiftly yanked her bag out of the truck bed and gently swung her legs up so that she was cradled in my arms, all the while my lips were crushed to hers. Without seperating our lips, i kicked the door closed, lifted her bag onto my shoulder and started up the darkened steps. Once inside the doorway, i stopped, holding Bella to my chest as tightly as i dared. We kissed there for several minutes, feverently, less controlled than unsual. I could hear Bella's quickened heartbeat thump against my hard chest. She tightened her grip around my neck, trying to force herself closer still. As hard as it was to make my lips part with hers, i pulled her away with a quiet chuckle and held her at arms length. I had to compose myself. I breathed in, one sharp breath. I looked deeply into the eyes of my love and whispered close into her ear,
"Welcome home"
"That sounds nice" She breathed.
I set her gently on her feet, where she wrapped her arms around my waist and crushed herself back against me.
"I have something for you" I said, trying to keep my tone casual.
"Oh"
"Your hand-me-down, remember? You said that was allowable"
"Oh, that's right. I guess i did say that"
I chorteled. Typical Bella. Forever reluctant to accept a gift.
"It's up in my room. Shall i go get it"
Her eyes brightened a little and a look i could not fathom spread across her face.
"Sure" She said, taking my hand. "Let's go"
I couldn't wait to give her my gift, and her human legs could not move fast enough for me. I scooped her up again and flew upstairs to my bedroom. I set her on her feet at the door and sped away, returning before she could steady herself. I stood expectantly infront of her for a second before she walked past me, and jumped onto the huge gold bed, bought just for her. She settled herself into a ball in the centre of it with her arms wrapped around her knees, seeming to brace herself. "Okay, let me have it" She grumbled.
I laughed lightly at her.
I climbed onto the bed next to her and heard her heart-rate accelerate. I hoped this was a reaction to the gift.
"A hand-me-down" I reminded her.
I took her left wrist for just a second then gave it back to her. She looked at the bracelet cautiously for a long moment. Opposite the tiny wooden wolf already attached, now hung a sparkling heart- shaped diamond. Although, i knew Bella would be happier beleiving it was a crystal, rather than a precious gem. Bella sucked in her breath in a quiet gasp. Her reaction pleased me, but i stayed calm, hoping to seem indifferent.
"It was my mothers" I shrugged, "I inherited quite a few baubles like this. I've given some to Esme and Alice both. So, clearly, this is not a big deal in any way." I said, trying to convince her it was nothing at all. She smiled contritely at me.
"But i thought it was a good representaion. It's hard and cold," I laughed, " And it throws diamonds in the sunlight"
"You forgot the most important similarity," She muttered, "It's beautiful"
"My heart is just as silent" I speculated, "And it, too, is yours"
She held up her wrist and examined the bracelet again, twisting it, making the heart shimmer. "Thank you" She breathed sincerely, "For both"
"No, thank you. It's a relief to have you accept a gift so easily. Good practice for you, too." I grinned widely at her. She leaned into me then, and i wrapped my arms tightly around her, pulling her close to me. "Can we discuss something?" She began after a moment, " I'd appreciate it if you could begin by being open minded" "I'll give it my best effort," I said, wary now. "I'm not breaking any rules here, this is strictly about you and me" She cleared her throat, giving way to some of her apparent unease. " So, i was impresed by how we were able to compromise the other night. I was thinking, i would like to apply the same principle to a different situation." She began rather formally. I struggled to stop a smile from sneaking into my voice, glad that she could not see my face. "What would you like to negotiate?" I asked her. She did not speak. Instead, i could hear the over-excited beating of her heart.
"Listen to your heart fly. It's fluttering like a hummingbirds wings. Are you alright?" I asked her. "I'm great" She replied, a little unconvincingly. "Please go on then" "Well, i guess, first, i wanted to talk to about that whole ridiculous marraige thing" I raised my eyebrows. "It's only rediculous to you," I reminded her. "What about it?" She hesitated. "I was wondering...Is that open to negotiation"
I frowned. If i had a beating heart, it wouldv'e lept. " I've already made the largest consession by far and away" I told her seriously, "I've agreed to take your life away against my better judgment. And that ought to entitle me to a few compromises on your part"
"No" She said quickly, shaking her head, " That part's a done deal. We're not discussing my... renovations right now. I want to hammer out some other details." She waited for me to reply, holding her breath. "What details do you mean exactly?" I asked slowly, suspicious. She hesitated, "Let's clarify your prerequisites first" "You know what i want." I told her.
Her face took on a disguted look. "Matrimony" She spit the word, as if it burned her mouth. I grinned at her, amused by her expression. "Yes. To start with." Shock flashed across her face. I had not shared these thoughts with her yet. "There's more?" She asked, exhasperated.
"Well, if you're my wife, then what's mine is yours...like tuition money. So there should be no problem with Dartmouth." I explained, bracing myself for her reaction. "Anything else? While you're already being absurd?" She stared at me with her eyes open wide. "I wouldn't mind some time"
"No. No time," She answered immediatly, "That's a deal breaker right there" The discussion quickly turned into an argument about her imminent change into an immortal. "I didn't realise there was anything else you wanted besides being transformed into a monster yourself. I'm extremely curious." Bellas desire to join my world had always intreuged, yet terrified me. I wondered why she was so eager to become a monster, like me. I sat watching her, waiting for her to reply. Instead, she stared at our intertwined fingers, a heat rising in her cheeks. "You're blushing?" I asked, surprised. She didn't look up. "Please, Bella, the suspense is painful" It was still extremely difficult for me when she kept her thoughts to herself, not letting me in! She eventually looked at me, "Well, I'm a little worried," She admitted, "... About after"
I tensed, but kept my voice calm, " What has you worried?" I asked. Bella explained to me that she was nervous about how she would act when she was newly 'renovated'. She had heard stories from my whole family about how volatile and violent newborns have been known to be, and this made her anxious.
She told me shyly, "I'm afraid i'll be so preoccupied with the mayhem that i won't be me anymore... and that i won't... i won't want you in the same way i do now"
"Bella, that part doesn't last forever," I assured her. She looked at me nervously, then her eyes strayed back down to her hands. She didn't say anything more. I waited.
"Whatever you want," I promised, encouraging her to go on, still wondering where this was leading.
"Tell me what you want, and you can have it." I told her.
"You." She mummbled quietly.
I smiled, pleased. " I'm yours"
She sucked in her breath deeply then moved to kneel infront of me. She wrapped her slightly shaking hands around my neck and kissed me. I kissed her back, slightly confised. I kissed her softly, still trying to figure out her thoughts, when her trembling hands slowly moved from around my neck. Suddenly, with shaking fingers, she began to undo the buttons on my shirt. I froze. I pushed her hands away, dissapointed when i realised her intentions.
"Be reasonable, Bella"
"You promised--- Whatever i wanted" She reminded me weakly.
"We are not having this discussion Bella. No." I said, maybe a bit too harshly.
Bella was quiet for a long time, glaring at her hands in her lap. I moved her head up with my finger tips to look at her face, into her eyes. The look i found there shocked me.
"Did i hurt your feelings?" I asked, horrified.
"No" she lied badly.
Before she could think about it, i had her in my arms, holding her close to me. "You know why i have to say no," I whispered, "You know that i want you, too"
"Do you?" She asked, her voice full of painful doubt.
"Of course i do, you silly, beautiful, over sensitive gril." I laughed once.
Of course i wanted her. I had never wanted anything more. Ever. There were no words to describe the desperate way i wanted, needed and loved Bella. She had to understand this. She kissed me, persausively then, slowly wearing me down. It was hard to concentrate.
"Please, Edward. Please." She begged, her eyes burning into mine.
I pulled her close and whispered into her ear, "Do you know how painfull it is, trying to refuse you when you plead with me this way?" I asked in a strained voice.
I felt her shiver when my breath blew across her face and her neck.
"Then don't refuse" She suggested breathlessly. I couldn't respond.
"Please..." She begged again.
I shook my head slowly, not quite a denial, my lips dragging across her throat, inhaling her sweet scent. I heard her heart race, knowing my own would if it could. Bella quickly twisted in my arms, bringing her lips back to mine. My breath huffed out in a low moan, seizing her face between my hands to pull her closer. Of course i wanted her. Of course i did.
I kissed her desperatly, only allowing my lips to leave hers when she gasped for air. I still couldn't stop myself, although i knew i should. My lips moved, as if by themselves, from her lips down to her throat. While i was distracted, Bella had quickly got through the buttons on my shirt and was running her still trembling hands over my bare chest and stomach. This was unbearable. Her touches, her kisses, the quiet moans escaping from her lips, everything was utterly unbearable. And yet, i couldn't make my lips stop kissing her, i couldn't stop my hands from pulling her body closer to mine. Bella reached between us, up to the buttons on her blouse, to undo them. No. I had to stop this. It was already becoming too much. My hands moved unwillingly to her wrists and pulled her hands away, stopping her. "Not tonight" I told her, my kisses against her neck and jaw now softer.
"Give me one good reason why tonight is not as good as any other night?" She demanded.
"I wasn't born yesterday," I chuckled in her ear. "Out of the two of us, which do you think is more unwilling to give the other what they want? You just promised to marry me before you do any changing, but if i give in tonight, what guarentee do i have that you won't go running off to Carlisle in the morning? I am --- clearly --- much less reluctant to give you what you want. Therefor... you first"
Bella looked at me in disbelief, " I have to marry you first?" She asked, her tone incredulous.
"That's the deal --- take it or leave it. Compromise, remember?" I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her, in a way that i hoped was persuasive.
"How did this happen?" She grumbled eventually, breathless. " I thought i was holding my own tonight---for once--- and now all of a sudden---" "You're engaged." I finished for her "Ew. please don't say that out loud!
I opened my eyes wide, "Are you going back on your word?" I demanded, enjoying myself slightly.
"Ugh," She groaned "No. I'm not. Are you happy now"
I smiled hugely, "Extremely" And i was. I had never been so happy, nor had i ever been so excited.
"Do you want to see your ring?" I asked, with an almost childish eagerness.
"No!" She almost shouted. My face fell slightly, dissapointed. She sighed.
"I'm sorry. Show me the ring"
"No" I huffed.
"Edward...Please? Please can i see it"
I narrowed my eyes at her, "You are the most dangerous creature i have ever met" I told her. In a flash though, i had moved and was back with a ring box which i placed on her left knee. She hesitated.
"Another hand-me-down" I assured her, before she could ask. "This also belonged to my mother"
Bella opened the box and her eyes widened. "It's so pretty!" She exclaimed quietly, sounding surprised.
I took the ring from the box and slipped it onto Bella's finger. Perfect. I liked that. Alot.
"Do you mind if i do something?" I asked her, tightening my arms around her.
"Anything you want" She replied but groaned when i slid away from her. "Anything but that"
I ignorned her and pulled her by the hand onto her feet. I stood infront of her with my hands on her shoulders. "Now, I want to do this right. Please, please keep in mind that you have already agreed to this and don't ruin it for me." With that, i slid down onto one knee.
"Oh no" She gasped.
"Be nice" I muttered back.
I took a deep breath, choosing the perfect words. "Isabella Swan?" I began, looking deep into her eyes, " I promise to love you forever. Every single day of forever. Will you marry me"
Although i already knew what her answer would be, i held my breath, as if it would help. Bella's cheeks tinted with pink and she whispered, "Yes"
"Thank you" I said simply.
I stood and lifted her left hand to my lips where i kissed the ring which now would always belong to her. I would forever remember this night. The happiest night of my long life so far. Bella was my everything, and now, she would be my forever.