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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Not the same as you'd left it

Written By: twiggy94
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All Credit goes to the Original Author

My dark grey robe billowed behind me as i walked into the main hall.

"You called, Aro." i stated cooly. "Oh, yes i did. I have another trouble maker that i need taken care of." Aro replied. I was his favorite member of the guard, even more so than Jane and Alec, something Jane hated me for.

I live here in Volterra, one of the Volturi's guards, and the best. Victoria came back after Edward left. She wanted to kill me, but when she learned he was gone, she decided it'd be more painful for me to let me live. And she did. The Volturi found me in the south, they had come to control some newborns and found me just wandering. They'd learned of my power and took me in.

My power was probably the greatest of all. I controlled the mind. I could block other powers from myself and others, i can control other's powers and there minds, and once i've used their powers through them, i duplicate it and keep it. I have accumulated the powers of everyone in Volterra, along with the powers of every other vampire i've met. I pretty much have all the powers, and could kill everyone in Volterra if i wanted to, but i wouldn't. I have no-where else to go and i don't want to rule the vampire world. When Aro says he has a job for someone, it isn't optional. I'm the exception to that. There is really nothing anyone could or would even dare to do if i just refused Aro's wishes

"Sure, I'm bored" was my response.

"Lovely."he said. "There is an issue with newborns in Seattle and the humans are getting suspicious. There is a family near there that is quite peculiar and only drinks from animals, they tipped me off to the situation. The leader is my friend and he has asked for assistance in the matter. You see, there are over 30 newborns and they don't want to fight, much less being so outnumbered. There are seven in the coven. They agreed to allow you to stay with them while you're there. Could you please deal with it?" Aro explained. The family he spoke of was a bit to familiar. I kept my voice cool, as always, and asked:

"What's the name of the coven?"

"Cullen" Aro stated simply.

I froze for the shortest of moments. What they did to me stopped hurting me a while ago, i have matured, meaning i have become cold and cruel, but they still weren't my favorite people and i did hold a grudge. No one in Volterra new of my history with them; I didn't want to explain that, it may have caused me problems here, and, back when i was changed, i didn't want to get the Cullens in trouble.

"When do i leave?" i asked, sounding disinterested.

"Now if you want."

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I was driving to the old Cullen house from the airport in Seattle. They didn't know it was me they'd sent and i didn't need any direction to get there, i remembered the house perfectly. I wondered vaguely if they would recognize me, though i didn't change that much, and how they'd moved and how that ones distractions were working for him. Aro called, informing me he just called the coven and told them i was less than five minutes away and then asking me to be nice to the coven because they were friends of his.

I arrived at the house. I took five minutes to collect myself before entering, i needed to keep calm.

I knocked on the door. Rosalie answered, at first she looked bored, but when she took in my appearance and made the connection, she froze.

"Bella?" She said nervously, this was going to be more difficult than i thought.

I gave a bitter, reminiscent smirk, she used to hate me, i believe that's actually she's ever directly spoken to me.

"Hello Rosalie, are you planning on letting me in?" i asked in a polite, cooly detached voice. I was already tired of being here. What was in the past was in the past. I really didn't want to take this trip down memory lane.

Alice appeared at the door with the rest of the family behind her, except for one. There was a collective gasp.

"Bella!" they all exclaimed simultaneously, you'd think they'd rehearsed it.

They finally stepped out of the way and allowed me in, awestruck. I decided to get straight to the point: "How many newborns do you need help dealing with?"

"You're the Volturi they sent?!"Emmett boomed. "You're in the Volturi?" he asked in a quieter voice.

"Yep." we moved into the living room. After a few minutes of being stared at, a few of them finally came to their senses and Emmett and Alice shouted, "Bella!" and came running to hug me. I dodged them both and was back in my seat as though i hadn't moved faster than they could process what had happened.

Alice looked like she would be crying if she could and Emmett lowered his head in shame. "We're sorry, Edward said it was for you're own good an--" I lifted up my hand.

"That's not the matter at hand though, is it?" i changed the subject fluently. At that moment, Edward walked through the door and stared at me, We stared at each other for what felt like hours. His eyes were filled with regret and sadness and a little bit of hope.

"Bella" he said in his velvety voice, his eyes smoldering.

I stared at him for a while. My eyes revealing nothing, i kept them in a cool and polite expression.

"Hello Edward," I acknowledged him and turned back to the family. "This is beginning to get dull so can you tell me when and where to catch these newborns and can you tell me how many there are and who's controlling them?" I asked. Alice's eyes went blank, i got into her mind and entered her vision:

'Its dark, i stand in front and the Cullens behind me. We are in the meadow and from the darkness of the trees, 35 newborn vampires emerge. Their eyes are a brilliant red and there expressions savage. A masculine, all too familiar voice commands : "Kill".

The vision ends, i know what i need to know and i take a second to process Alice's power, which i just duplicated. Aro will be pleased.

"Thank you, i assume that will be tonight. Am i correct?" I address Alice: she has more experience extracting the times from the visions in which the seen occurrences will take place.

"Umm... yes... Did you see that with me?" She asks. I nod.

"Bella, what exactly is your power?" I smirk. And send them a telepathic message:

All of them

They all jump, not expecting that. Edward still had not taken his eyes off me and it was becoming quite irritating. I get into his mind and begin to command his feet to move to the sofa across from his family and force him to sit. I see his family stare at him, i wasn't being discreet and so they could tell he wasn't moving of his own accord. I got into another part of his mind, the one that controls his power, and read his families mind with him.

-What's happening? -Jasper

-Dude, what is that? - Emmett

-Is this Bella's doing? -Esme

-What an interesting power. -Carlisle

-Bella is so cold now, so distant. -Alice

-She's changed. -Rosalie

Two duplicated powers in one day, Aro will be ecstatic, especially since he's been coveting Alice and Edward's powers for so long. Edward's face was priceless at this moment. Apparently he's not used to having his mind controlled. I laughed. Everyone turned to me and looked at me as though i had five heads.

"Staring is rude, Edward." I said in a mocking tone.

"I'm sorry, Bella. This shouldn't have happened. This wasn't what i thought would happen when we left. I wanted you to grow up, be normal, have a family, be happy. I did it for you: i love you. How did this happen?" He started dishing out apology after apology and explanation after explanation. A part of me felt bad, the part that retained some of my humanity, but the rest of me was just getting increasingly pissed of.

"Whatever Edward, that was a long time ago. nothing will be achieved crying overspilt blood." i said, betraying none of my emotions. I really wanted to forgive them all. However flawed his ideas were and wether he was lying or not still didn't merit the type of sadness he displayed now. It reminded me of me after he left. It was pitiful and i pitied him, though he didn't deserve my sympathy.

He looked broken now, so fragile. I wasn't going to hurt him more, i didn't need to be cruel. My grudge had dissipated, they held none of the pride they had before, none of the things i use to value. They were average, and sad. I let it go; it was time to grow up.

I sighed, "Edward, don't apologize. I've let it go already. I'm just going to do what i was sent to do and i'll be gone." I said. The instant it was out of my mouth though, "No! I don't want you to go. Let me make it up to you. I'll never hurt you again, please! I want-- I need you." he shouted. Something in my cold heart reacted slightly, something in me came back to life.

"Time will tell Edward. I'm not the person you left. Honestly, i don't know if you could love me like you did the person you left, and i don't know if the person i am now could love you like the person i once was did." I answered honestly. I believed his apology, his mind was so messed up and so was his family's. All of them truly regret leaving, even Rosalie. Everything Edward said about having left for my own good and never having stopped loving me was true, as far as what their minds could tell me, and they didn't know i was listening. He was silent now, his expression and his mind both unshifting in his belief that he loved me no matter who i was now.

"I love you no matter what." He stated with conviction. I stared at him appraisingly. "That may be, but that is not the matter at hand." I replied cooly. His pleading and confessing his love for me was getting annoying. I looked outside and noticed that i had lost track of time. It was dark. I looked at my watch : 11:13. I wasn't sure what exactly the time was which i was supposed to fight these newborns but i knew it must be soon, in the vision it appeared to be around midnight.

"It's time to go." I stated. This time, everyone turned their attention to the window and noticed the time.

"Do you have a strategy to fight these newborns" Jasper spoke up for the first time since i got here.

i turned my attention to him. I was never close to him but i had learned of his past in Volterra, i'd looked up the Cullens in the Volturi's files a while ago. Not to mention, one of my assignments last year was to destroy Jaspers creator, Maria, and her army.

"Not really, i don't usually need one. What were you thinking of though?" In my search had learned that Jasper was a talented fighter with a good mind for strategy.

"I thought that for a group that big we'd have to split them up. But you seem to have experience fighting large armies on your own." Jasper answered me.

"Very perceptive. Let's go" With that, we all got up, and went to our cars. (A/N: I'm not a car person so i'll leave the type of car Bella drives up to the reader. Anything that's fast, expensive, and pretty will do) Jasper, Alice and Edward piled into my car and Emmett, Carlisle, Esme and Rosalie got into Emmett's jeep.

We drove in silence to the path that leads to the meadow. Upon arrival, we got out and just before running to the meadow, i shouted to Edward,

"If memory serves, you were the fastest. Lets see if that title still holds true." He smiled at me, and i threw him the first happy expression i've made today: a competitive smirk, one without bitterness or anger, just the happy edginess of competition. We ran and i beat Edward by 9 seconds and the rest of the family by 13, and i was going easy on them (One of my duplicated powers is super speed, even by vampire standards.). Just as we arrived, me positioned in front with edward to my right and Jasper to my left. The rest of the Cullens were lined up behind us. Just as we turned around, we saw the newborns step out of the trees.


The Cullens tensed, they weren't used to fighting. Then, that voice i knew all too well sounded, just like in the vision.

"Kill." The message was simple and the newborns went into a frenzy. It didn't even take up all of my attention as i slipped into the mental haze of mindless fighting. I dodged blocked and killed without even noticing what i was doing. I kept my mind open though, using Edward's power and seeing, through their minds, how the rest of the Cullens were doing. They seemed to be doing well, though they were amaze at my skill. I focused my attention back to the newborns, i think i had killed about ten by now, and three were attacking me simultaneously. I got bored of the fight though, and used Jane's power. I smiled brilliantly at them, they all dropped to their knees, all three of them. The Cullens and the other newborns stopped in their tracks as they heard the other newborn's screams. I quickly did away with them, putting them out of their misery. The other fights resumed. Only nine newborns remained and Jasper was running in a frenzy, leaving Alice with nothing to do, and getting himself hurt in the process. I stood in, not wanting either one to get hurt, they were already starting to find a way back into my heart, i'd have to leave quickly.

I took on the rest of the rest of the newborns and did away with them. I added them to the stack of newborn remains and lit it on fire. That was too easy, and i believe i'd duplicated another power, but i wasn't sure. I never payed attention when i fought, it was too easy to hold my attention, i just fought and won subconsciously. i turned my attention back to the trees as i waited for the person behind it, the person i never wanted to see again.

A slow, methodical clap resonated through the trees as a man or vampire, stepped out of the trees, his hair jet-black and his eyes a piercing red. The most bitter of people, and the most beautiful. He was lean and tall, at least 6"5', but his muscles were clearly visible. He had sharp features and his hair fell in a sexy disarray just above his eyes. At the back, his hair stood up. His skin, though, was unlike any other vampire. He was a deep russet color and his skin was burning hot, not ice cold.

"I knew that wouldn't stop you Bells, i could probably have sent more and you wouldn't even have needed these Cullens to help." Jacob's husky voice was now cold, angry.

"Jake" was all i could say. The one person i could never harm, even if i'd wanted too. My one equal, my best friend, the one who fixed me, the one who loved me, the one who i loved too late, and the one who's soul i destroyed. He was my saviour and he was my demon.

"Well done Bells, now i have you back. Man, the Volturi is stupid. They sent you here, didn't you even consider the region? Who did you think would be behind this? What goes around comes around Bells, now you're mine." He stated, taking a step toward me. Just as he reached me, Edward pushed me back and stood in front of me, growling, as did Jasper and Emmett.

Jacob laughed, bitter and cruel. "You're kidding right?" Alice, Esme and, to my surprise, Rosalie came to my side.

"What are you," Rosalie asked in an impatient tone. "Who are you? And how he hell do you know Bella?"

"What am i? I'm the werewolf turned vampire. Who am I? I am Jacob Black, formerly of the La Push tribe. How the hell do i know Bella? I was once her best friend." Jacob answered each question. Never taking his eyes off of me.

"Werewolf? When the hell were you friends with a werewolf?" Edward asked, dumbfounded and irritated, addressing me. "And aren't werewolves supposed to protect people from vampires, how'd you become one? Especially one that drinks from humans? What happened to the all-righteous 'protectors'?" Edward asked Jacob.

Jacob answered for me. "After you left; Bella turned me; if you hadn't noticed, the once all-innocent -wouldn't harm a fly- Bella drinks from humans too."

That was the first time the Cullens noticed the color of my eyes, there was a collective gasp.

"Why?" was all Edward said.

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Jacob decided to answer for me:

"Well, Bella was a walking zombie after you bastards left her so she gets some motorcycles and asks me to fix them up for her. We hangout for a couple weeks, she starts getting better. I turn into a werewolf, she finds out. Vampire after vampire come after and one gets her. She jumped of a cliff for fun and the vampire, Victoria was it?, was waiting in the water. I find Bella after a week of frantic searching and i have no idea what to do. The pack comes, they say she's dangerous and can't stay. We were her friends, so we don't kill her. Our alpha, Sam, decides to make her leave and never come back: it was the only way we could let a newborn live. I was an idiot. I ran away with her. We were together for a while, but i had to disown my pack and become my own alpha, since it was in my blood, but half the pack decides to switch out of Sam's pack with me. It was dangerous, and Bella was unstable. We had gone south and gotten involved in some vampire wars and the pack mixed in. After betraying my pack, getting some of them killed and still siding with the vampire, getting countless injuries that had me to the point of death, and not being able to go to the doctor because my temperature should have meant i was dead, Bella bites me. She didn't want to see me die, and she didn't want to see me turned. My werewolf DNA reacted and now, i have the powers of both. Wen i wake up she's gone, taking the only thing i had left with her: my heart. I had nothing. More than half my pack was dead, the rest wouldn't ever forgive me: if they'd ever see me again they'd kill me or force me to kill them. I had nothing and i was as broken as Bella was when you'd left her. She damned me to her same suffering!" He was shouting now, and i deserved to hear it. "Is this what you wanted for me Bells? Company in your suffering! You weren't even there when i woke up. Why the hell didn't you just let me die? I have nothing now! I should kill you Bells, and I could. I'm the only one that fucking could and you know it!" He finished.

The Cullens were lost by now, and i was at the point of a breakdown, that was why i left. I was too greedy to let Jake die, though i knew he would have been happier if i had, since it was my fault everything else he had was gone. I didn't want him dead, i thought we'd be able to work it out. Through his transformation though, i realized that i'd made a mistake, i didn't want to see Jake as what he'd become, i realized i'd damned him to my suffering. I ran. I ran and i regret it. Maybe we could have worked it out if i had stayed. Maybe neither of us would be this bitter.

"I'm sorry." was all i could choke out. "I'm so sorry, i was scared."

"We could have worked it out Bells," he began to shake violently, "but you're too late now." he exploded.

Jacob, in all his deadly glory. More powerful than any vampire or werewolf combined, more deadly, more angry, more beautiful. After i'd left him, i'd followed him. It was a sick game of cat and mouse. I couldn't confront him. Especially not after having him wake up alone, and seeing how that affected him, how bitter he'd become and how fast he'd become it. But i couldn't leave him alone, i never did anything all the way. I watched him from a distance and knew for a fact that his power was equal or maybe even greater than mine, and i was the most powerful vampire in existence. Before he'd become a werewolf, he had already surpassed Emmett in size, and had Emmett been human back then he could have probably beat him in a competition of brute force. Also, as a werewolf, he'd surpassed Sam in stature before i'd changed him. Him, as vampire and werewolf combined gave him all the advantages of the strongest of werewolves: size, power, jaws, claws; and the advantages of the strongest of vampires: skin stronger than diamond, teeth (and in his case, claws) stronger than diamond as well. And, he had venom. Also, his natural anti-vampire defenses were intensified. My vampire powers had no effect on him. I couldn't control his mind, i couldn't read it, i couldn't see his future, i couldn't cause him pain with my mind, i couldn't use any of my offensive powers on him. The only powers that'd work against him would be the ones i used on myself: my shield (physical -another power i have- and mental), my ability to clone myself, (a power i took a while back, from Maria's latest helper after Jasper), and my super speed and super strength even by vampire standards, and my telekinesis.

He lunged at me with an unimaginable speed. I dodged just in time. He snarled ferociously and crouched, preparing for his next attack. He was huge in his vampire wolf form, apparently the transformation had made him even bigger. It became a dance, and nothing in the world existed but us. The Cullens were terrified, they had realized by now that i was the strongest vampire in existence and, for lack of a better way to put it, were scared shitless by the fact that it was apparent that Jacob wasn't lying when he claimed to be my equal. Jacob kept lunging and i kept dodging. It would look like we were dancing in circles to anyone watching. A perfectly choreographed dance, we never touched each other.

The Cullens chose then to snap out of their haze and join the fight. Edward got in front of me as quickly as i'd ever seen him and foolishly attempted to kick Jacob. The Cullen's interference, Edward's in particular, sent him over the edge. He slammed Edward with his paw mid-kick. Edward, not nearly as big or as strong as Jacob, went flying into the trees. I used this distraction to get on top of Jacob.

"Is this really how it'll end, Jake?" I asked. "I don't want to kill you. I'll climb off your back, away from your neck and out of this hazardous position, if you just turn around and leave." I finished, my voice deadly. He was like this because of me, and the things i did to make him like this are my biggest and my only regrets, regrets i'll take with me to hell shall i ever cease to exist. He fixed me, i destroyed him, and i have to live with it. I loved just as much as i hated Jacob Black.

"I'm not going to kill you. That was never my plan. If i do that, i still have to live with everything you've done to me. No, I'm going to kill everyone that means anything to you, the Cullen's, maybe even the Volturi. I've already proven how easy it is to draw them out of Volterra and we both know i could destroy any and all of them quite easily. Then, when you are alone in the world I'll laugh. I won't do that now though. You took your time destroying everything i had. I'm leaving now." He turned and began to run away, i jumped off of his back the instant he reached the trees. I returned to the Cullens, who were crowded around Edward, making sure he was okay.

"You are just letting him get away? Just like that? You are just as weak as you always were." Rosalie started off screeching but then switched into a mocking laugh. I was emotionally exhausted, i thought i had lost all emotion when i entered Volterra for the first time, I wasn't used to this much feeling. My face held an old, tired expression as i said:

"Jacob is my equal and i am the only one who can hold my own against him. We are most likely the two most powerful creatures on the planet. I can't be protecting you from him and still expect to survive myself. If it's him I'm up against you are nuisances." I explained to Rosalie in an even tone. "You are his targets, not me. He wouldn't give me that escape, i didn't give it to him. I just saved your asses, be grateful." I finished crudely. I wasn't in the mood to deal with her, or any of them for that matter. In the past 24 hours, my whole past has come and blown up in my face.

Rosalie and the Cullens were taken aback, I never spoke that way to them, they still had a lot to learn about me. Edward was looking at me, as though with new eyes, he was realizing i wasn't breakable anymore, that i truly wasn't the child he left.

"What do we do then?" Jasper asked after a few moments of tense silence.

"We go back to your house and regroup. I told Jacob everything when i was human, so he would probably be under the impression that it would hurt me most if Edward were to be killed, he'd probably save him for last, he hates you, you know." I was speaking to Edward now. "He'd probably want you to feel pain too, he'd kill your whole family one by one and you last, to hurt both of us." Now i turned my attention back to Jasper, "Jacob would know that i'd guess that, so he probably wouldn't go in order, just by who is more convenient."

"So what, we're doomed?" Rosalie asked, now with a hint of fear in her voice.

"Honestly, i wouldn't know. I'll do what i can." I stated simply. Carlisle then suggested we continue the conversation in private, so we went back to our cars and proceeded to the house.

"Bella, what happened between you and Jacob? Why does he hate you so much?" Alice asked once we'd gotten home.

"He said it. I was sad, he came along, we became friends, he turned into a werewolf, we became closer, i became a vampire, he runs with me, his pack disagrees, there's a fight, some of them die, the rest wouldn't take him back, it annoyed some newborn armies, we got caught up in the fight, he was mortally wounded despite his werewolf recovery system, i changed him, i realize my mistake, i leave, he wakes up alone, he becomes angry, the Volturi come and find me, take me to Volterra, i never see him again, the Volturi don't know, i come back, here he is, trying to do what i did to him, take away everything i have." I said the story exactly as he did with only slightly more detail. My voice was monotone; dead.

"Realistically, what are our options?" Jasper asked. I looked at him speculatively.

"I could try to kill him, 50-50 chance of survival, or we die." i said, trying to come up with a third option, i wasn't sure i could kill Jacob, not only because we are equal in power, but because i don't want to kill him.

We all sat in silence. "What if we helped, we could serve at least as a distraction while you kill him?" Jasper asked.

"You may die." i responded, "But without it you will die. How experienced are you in fighting?" I asked, i new they had pretty good powers, but they were all useless against Jake. I needed to know how good they were in hand to hand combat.

"I'm pretty experienced in fighting." Jasper said "You know your powers are useless against Jake, right?" I questioned.

"Yes, we don't fight very much, we don't usually have to." Carlisle said. damn, this was going to be difficult.

"Alright, come outside with me, i need to know your fighting styles, strengths, and weaknesses without your powers, which i can block so that it''ll be as though you're fighting Jake." We headed outside.

"Jasper, you go first. You are the most experienced fighter." He stepped forward. "Try to kill me." I commanded and got prepared to fight. Jasper wasted no time, no doubt expecting me to think he'd hesitate. I caught his glance to Alice before pouncing on me. He would gladly get himself killed if it meant protecting Alice. I wasted no movement on his attack, literally a second before impact, i caught his punch and pulled him down to the flipped and i held him down by his neck "If i were Jacob, you'd be dead now." i said, monotone. "Don't think, just do. Attack me as though you want me dead." Jasper didn't seem to be able to give in to his instinct, he needed motivation. If only i could bleed, that would set him off. Then an idea came to me.

I lunged off of Jasper toward Alice, who had no idea what i was going to do and looked at me terrified. That got jasper angry. I had caught Alice by the neck and was about to smash her into the nearest tree when Jasper roared and lunged and, with a speed I had never seen him reach, he grabbed Alice and in the same motion kicked me in the stomach, sending me flying back. He put Alice down gently and turned to me snarling in fury. I saw the last of his humanity leave his eyes as he put Alice down.

"Alice will be in danger against Jacob since she can't use her power. He's bigger and faster as well. If you want her alive by the end of this you will do everything you can to kill me now." i said, lunging toward Alice again. I was holding back some, and Jasper was just barely able to keep me away from Alice, but he was able to, which means he will be useful against Jacob even if only as a distraction.

"Good Jasper, don't worry, I'm not going to attack Alice anymore. Chill." Jasper took a minute to collect himself. The Cullens stood there, shocked. Jasper just proved to be much stronger than they'd thought, i read there minds. Alice was impressed, she liked it.

"Sorry about that Alice, i figured trying to get to you would be enough reason for him to try to kill me. Rosalie, would you come next, i don't think i'd need to motivate you to try to destroy me." i said.

"Gladly" was all Rosalie said. She had some serious issues with me that she needed to work through. I dodged every one of her attacks with perfect timing and minimal movement. She needed more training, she wasn't nearly as experienced as jasper. "Sloppy. Is this really all you've got? I mean, you've been cursing my existence and wishing me dead all day, in your thoughts at least. Is this really the extent of your anger. I'm disappointed, i thought you'd be pissed enough to give a decent fight. What do i have to do to anger you? Kiss Emmett?" I was smirking, and she still hadn't stopped her futile attempts to attack me. At the last comment she snarled so furiously, i was almost scared. She lunged in front of Emmett "Don't you dare whore!" she screeched. I slid neatly behind her, grabbed Emmett's hand and dragged him about twenty yards away from Rose, his thoughts were erotic. "Watch me, slut." I said, wrapping my arms around Emmett's neck. That sent her into a fury similar to jasper, and she managed to keep me off of Emmett. she wouldn't be as useful as Jasper but at least she wouldn't be useless.

I did similar things to the rest of them. I taunted Emmett about not being strong enough to defend himself, much less his family. I made Alice feel bad about leaving me as a human, and beating her up as i did until she finally let go of her guilt and fought me (Jasper had to be held down by the rest of the family as i fought Alice, he was the most protective of them all.) It was hard fighting Esme and Carlisle though. i didn't know what i could do to make them angry, i basically made them feel like crap about possibly being the cause of the family's death if they couldn't attack me with murderous intent. Finally Edward, he was the only one who had yet to fight me.

"Your turn, Edward." I said. This was going to be hard. If he still loved me, i wouldn't be able to make him mad enough to try to kill me. and from his thoughts, he still did love me very much, stubbornly so. I couldn't taunt him about my previous relationship with jacob, he would just say it was his fault. I couldn't think of anything.

He lunged at me half heartedly, he was going slow and his attacks were weak. He still thought i needed protection! I sat down and stopped all movement just as Edward was about to deliver his next attack. As expected, he stopped just before he hit me. "You're not dodging?" he asked puzzled.

"You're useless." i stated coldly. "That was a test to see if you even would hit me. You didn't. Go to the Denali coven and hide like a scared dog, i can't baby you."

"No! I'll fight Jacob, i'll kill him. I just can't do that to you." he practically shouted. "No, you won't fight him. You'll try to protect me and get yourself killed in the process."

"I will fight." he said with conviction."Can you ignore me completely, even if Jacob has me pinned to the ground and concentrate only on him? On distracting him so i can kill him?" he looked at me with determination.

"Fine, if you die: I warned you"

We hung around for a week after the fighting practice, every now and then one of them would come to me for practice or something but we pretty much just went off on our own or with our mates. Edward would sit in the same room as me as far away as possible and just stare at me for hours at a time and we all went hunting together, i grudgingly had to eat animal blood for them to be satisfied, but since it wasn't human i was always left unsatisfied, which left me in a pretty bad mood. We knew that Jacob would be back soon. He was probably waiting for one of us to leave. Frankly, so was i, one of the Cullens was going to get pissed and try to get away that'll lure him out, then this can really begin.

"Thats it! Lets go looking for the mutt and get this over with already, i'm sick of being trapped hear like a dog on a chain!" we heard Rose scream from all around the house. We were all in the living room just in time to watch her run out.

Emmett was just about to go after her, but i held him back. "Give it a minute." i said, listening carefully. "But he might come out and kill her. Let go of me!"

"Wait!" i shouted, my voice cold. "It's not time to worry yet." Then i heard it. "Now it is. Run!" i shouted and was out the door. The birds and all the animals had stopped making noise, which means something terrifying and unnatural is happening. That was the cue for me to know that he came out of hiding. The others were a bit behind me, so i arrived just in time to rescue Rose from being torn limb from limb. I kicked Jake off from his position on top of her. He wasn't in his wolf-vamp form yet.

"Hey Bells, how have you been? " Jake asked, malicious and cold, as he got up. His blood red eyes smiling a murderous smile. The other Cullens got there just then.

"Wonderful, you?" my tone matched his. "If you will please move so i can kill blondie over there, that would be wonderful." Jacob's tone the same.

"Of course." I stepped aside. All the Cullens looked at me with betrayed faces, and Jake looked confused before becoming suspicious.

"It's a trick." He stated wearily, angrily. The Cullens looked hopeful. "Not at all, have her" i walked to the edge of the woods. Then i darted in and caught the first one i saw. I walked back to Jake. "I get him though." The La Push gang had been hanging around. i had heard there thoughts while we had been chasing after Rose. They wanted me and Jake dead. Very dead. Jake wouldn't kill them, he betrayed them, something i know he still regrets. I didn't want to kill them either, but had they not forbidden me to stay in Forks, none of this would have happened, Jake wouldn't have run away, our lives wouldn't be this screwed up. I know it's their job to protect their people, but i will do what i have to to bury the past, including killing them for doing their job. The rest of the wolves walked into the clearing. There were only a few left. Sam, Embry, Jared, and Leah. The rest Jake and i had killed when i was a newborn and we had been caught in the newborn wars in the south at the same time. I currently held Embry by the neck, pinning him down to the ground in his wolf form.

Jake looked more betrayed, more hurt, more angry, more deadly. The whole pack wanted us dead and were about to attack Jake and I.

"Wolves. I know you hate me, i know you hate him. And you have good reason to. Here's the deal. Only attack Jake, the Cullens will attack him too, and only him. I'll fight Jake too and together we'll take him down. After that you can deal with me and the Cullens if you want. Do this, or Embry dies right now." The wolves looked at me with contempt, but turned their attention to Jake. I knew they wouldn't risk Embry, and being their cocky selves they probably though he would be easy to defeat, but he's a vamp-wolf now, last time he was only a wolf. "He's a vampire and a werewolf now, as strong as both combined. Just so you know." i told them, i didn't want them to die before they were of use.

"Thats low" Jake said, in a subdued angry voice. "Really low" Jake wasn't a bad guy, he was just angry, we both were. All the Cullens and wolves were turned against him now, in a line in front of me. I still had Embry though, he was my leverage.

"Don't screw with me Jake. I never want to see you again. They will fight you unless you never come back." I said.

"Bells, tell me one thing: do you really want to kill me? If i were to not transform, to lay down and let you kill me, would you?" he asked. I knew the answer and so did he.

"No," i said, gesturing to his many opponents, "but they would" And the real fight began.

All eyes turned to Jacob and he transformed into his vampwolf form he growled and lunged, though it was a halfhearted attempt. He didn't want to hurt his old wolf brothers more than he already had. Also, my answer had revealed something to him, something i didn't want to admit to myself: I didn't want Jacob dead, and i would never kill him. The Cullens had surrounded him while the wolves attacked. Had it been the wolves who'd surrounded him and the Cullens who'd attacked, he may have fought, but he would never kill the rest of the wolves. All four wolves had their claws and teeth sunk into him and were struggling to hold him down. The Cullens started kicking and punching him while he was down and helped keep him there.

He didn't even fight. He wouldn't. This wasn't what he had wanted. I had effectively slapped our pasts in his face, and he couldn't deal, and neither could i.

"Bella, finish him off, we'll hold him down." Jasper screamed at me; i had been standing there doing nothing as they fought my battle.

I steeped up to Jake, he didn't even bother to keep his form. He turned back into his more human form. "You said you wouldn't kill me." he said this with the voice he had before, when we were both human and innocent. "I have to. Jacob, i still love you and that terrifies me. You love me too. But you hate me. And i hate you too. We fucked ourselves over the second we got together. I'm not going to kill you, i'm going to save you. Good bye." He bowed his head respectfully, he was tired, he just wanted to rest and get away from this. "Please save me, don't hurt me" he mumbled finally. "I'll always love you, Jacob Black." I bent down and put my teeth to his neck, ripping his head off and throwing his body into the flame Carlisle had started for it. It was over in less than half a second, i tried to make it hurt as little as possible.

"Good bye." i turned to all the others, my eyes empty. The one person who made me feel every emotion from love to hate was gone, along with all my troubles and my heart. "Wolves, Jacob couldn't kill you, he lost the second you stepped into the field. Thank you. You saved him. Cullens, thank you for all your help." i was spent. I was more dead than alive. I was tired, i wanted to go home and sleep. Only, i had no home and could never sleep again. "Wolves, Jacob wasn't the only one who hurt you, what do you want to do with me now?" they looked stupefied. Sam ran into the woods and came back in his human form, he looked older even though he hadn't physically grown at all."What do you mean?" he ask bewildered. "I'm tired. I want to rest, i want to go home, i want to sleep and wake up before any of this happened. I can't do that and i don't want to return to the Volturi. You guys are the only ones i can think of who'd be willing to give me the closest thing to that." Sam looked at me now with pity, he was still a big brother to me in so many ways. "Bella, you were so young when all that happened, you have gone through so much. Is that what you want? For us to kill you?" edward cut in then "you have a home. with us. We want you, we'll work it out. Please Bella! Don't ask to be killed, we'll fight them. I won't lose you again!" He would have been sobbing if he could. I looked at the vampires who had once been my family, the ones i once loved. I didn't want to hurt anyone else, i didn't want to kill everything pure in the world. I sighed and went to him, to fix at least one thing in my life, i'll pretend to love him as i once did. I will live for this family, i will make something right. They deserve to be happy. I looked at Sam and nodded. He understood; the wolves left.

5 years later

"Let's go shopping!" Alice screamed.

"Sure, let's go. Rose, you coming?" I asked smiling slightly.

"Alright" She said, getting up from the sofa where she and Emmett had been curled up.

"Bye, love. Get back soon" Edward kissed me passionately with the pure love he held for me. I kissed back, reacting like i had as a human for his benefit. Even now, i would never love Edward as i had before, but i would pretend for forever to fix at least one thing in m existence. He looked into my now topaz eyes with his smoldering ones, he couldn't read me, he thought all was back to normal. The whole family was happy, and being with them helped me slightly. I had resigned to one fact by now: I would never heal, i would never love again, i would never forget

- Jacob Black.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

A Last Goodbye

Written by:lilabut
You can read the original here:
All credit goes to the original author

Never say I love you
If you really don't care.

Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there.

Never hold my hand
If you are going to break my heart.

Never say you're going to
If you don't really plan to start.

Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie.

Never say hello
If what you really mean is goodbye.

If you really mean forever
Then say you will try.

Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry.

Rebah A. Ward

It was a beautiful night. No clouds covered the black sky, the stars seemed brighter than usual, a soft breeze moved the leaves around me and the quick movement of the river at my feet was like music to my ears.

I lay on my back, smelling the grass beneath me, staring at the sky and trying to count the endless amount of lights up there.

My bare feet felt the soft earth that led into the river and my cold fingers played with the wild flowers surrounding me.

It was a lonely night, but I needed it. My whole family was hunting, preparing for the big day tomorrow. I had told them, I wasn’t thirsty, but I knew I would have to go hunting sometime this night.

But the desire to be alone was bigger than my physical needs. Tomorrow would be a hard day. And for the first time in about ten years, I was actually scared. Afraid to let go.

My daughter was going to marry. My only child, my everything. I would have to watch her slipping through my fingers.

She wouldn’t leave, really. She belonged here, with us, her family. But in a way, she wasn’t going to be here completely.

I had seen it, had known this day would come. From the day I accepted the undeniable bond between Nessie and my best friend Jacob, I had known it.

But all the knowledge couldn’t help me.

She was my daughter. She would never be “grown up” to me. She would always be my baby. A child to my eyes.

But on the other hand, there was no better place for her than being next to Jacob. He was the only one for her and I knew that, too.

Edward and me barely ever talked about the wedding. We accepted it in silence, but I knew him too well. He was in as much pain as I was.

Sometimes I saw him standing in Nessies old room, which still looked exactly like it did the day she moved out. Her bed was made, pictures covered the walls. It looked like she would return from school anytime. Like any normal child. But she wouldn’t.

I noticed the earth beneath me vibrating and I knew, I would not be alone any longer. I waited a few seconds, concentrating. It didn’t take much longer until I realized who was joining me.

I didn’t move an inch.

A few more seconds passed, at least, I thought so. Times passing seemed so unreal and unimportant to me now.

Then I heard someone enter the little meadow behind me, the strange, but familiar sound of a body phasing into an entirely different one, the rough sound of clothes being put on and then, heavy footsteps.

Jacob stopped next to me and I turned my head slightly to look up into his face.

“What are doing here? I thought you guys went hunting.”

“The others did.”

“Oh.”

Jacobs face suddenly looked a bit worried and I turned my head away from him.

There was silence, at least, neither of us was saying something. The beat of Jacobs heart filled my ears and I closed my eyes.

I heard him falling to the ground next to me and stretching his long body.

“You’re angry, aren’t you? That I asked Nessie to marry me. You never talk to me anymore. And you look so…. absent. All the time.”

I sighed.

“I am not angry, Jake. Don´t worry.”

“But what is with you? You look like you’re in pain and you know how much I don´t like seeing you like that.”

I opened my eyes and turned my head to face Jacob. He lay close to me and I felt the warmth radiating from his body.

“It´s not you, Jake. She’s my daughter. Seeing her leave, it would give me nightmares.”

“But we’re staying, Bella. We aren’t going anywhere. Did you think we would –“

“No, I didn’t. But still, in a way she is leaving me. Don´t you understand that?”

He didn’t answer me. His dark eyes were fixed on my face.

“I think I do.”

His voice was just a whisper and suddenly I realized how much he must understand. The feeling a goodbye causes, when the person you are saying goodbye to, is actually not really leaving at all. When that person stays, but is still gone. For you.

“Do you ever think about it?”

Jacob looked confused now.

“About what?”

“Us.”

The confusion on his face vanished and something else appeared, something I couldn’t quite define.

“Do you?”, he repeated my question.

I bit my lower lip, concentrating.

“From time to time.”

“What times?”

He looked rather curious now, but I knew that he meant everything as seriously as I did.

“When I see you and Nessie together.”

Pictures appeared in my head. My daughter in Jacobs arms, laughing, happy. The two of them under the huge Christmas tree Alice had decorated two years ago…

“What do think about?”

It took me a minute to answer. I tried to push all the memories out of my head and fixed my eyes on Jacob again.

“I see things.”

“What things?”

“I see what might have been. How different my life would be right now.”

We stared into each others eyes. I could hear nothing else but Jacobs heartbeat and his heavy breathing.

“I mostly see us, sitting on a porch together. Looking older and happy. I see children running at the beach, I see my parents, old and grey. Real grandparents. You always hold my hand in those visions. I hear the kids laughing and playing in the water. I smell the salt in the sea. And I feel the heat of your skin. And I can always hear my heart beating.”

When I finished, I felt strangely empty. I didn’t have a lot of secrets nowadays and this had been by far the biggest one. My secret thoughts about a life I had left behind.

I felt guilty for thinking so and I couldn’t really tell if it was a good idea to tell Jacob about it. He looked stunned and in a way, he looked sad.

The last time I had seen sadness in his eyes, had been the day his father had died. His pain had always been my pain and I couldn’t help myself. I took his too-big-hand in mine.

“You can hear your heart?”

I nodded. His voice was low and rough.

“You know, sometimes I think about us, too. I don´t see things, but I feel them. I wonder. But then I see Nessies eyes and I know things are perfect the way they are now.”

“Yeah… they are.”

Jacobs fingers softly brushed against my marble skin and the feeling was strange to me. The contrast between us had always been enormous, even when we were both still human.

But ever since I became a vampire, our bodies seemed like they were from different planets. And the sensation of our skin together was always something special to me.

“Bella?”

“What is it?”

His voice was so low, I couldn’t image a human would have heard it, even if Jacob had whispered it right into their ears.

“Did you ever regret your decision?”

I shortly hesitated.

“No. As you said, everything is perfect the way it is right now. But I do regret some things.”

“What things?”

“The pain I put you through. Sometimes I think I should have found a different way.”

“It was worth it though, in the end. Wasn’t it?”

“I don´t know. What do you think?”

Now he hesitated. Then he lifted his free hand and gently laid it against my cheek.

“I think it was. I mean, if you hadn’t chosen Edward, I would never have met Nessie. She wouldn’t exist. And she is most important to me now. You know what I mean? My pain was the key. In the end.”

“Interesting theory. “

We both smiled. His burning thumb brushed against my lips and I closed my eyes.

“It was real, though. Wasn’t it? We would have made it? That future, I see. The future I left behind. It could have been, right?”

Jacob didn’t answer and I opened my eyes again.

He smiled at me.

“I am sure it would. In a way, we were meant for each other. We would have been happy.”

“Yes. You always made me happy.”

“Will you tell Nessie one day?”

I was confused by his sudden change of subject.

“What?”

“About us. What we were.”

I sighed.

“I don´t think so. Maybe. But… don´t you think it would be kind of strange and difficult for her? Because, for me, we still are.”

I now lifted my own free hand and laid it on Jacobs bare chest, right over his heart.

“I think so, too. From time to time.”

I laughed again.

We didn’t say a word for a while. They just weren´t necessary. I listened to Jacobs heart and felt his touch on my skin.

I moved closer to him and buried my face in his chest.

Jacob moved his hand away from my face and put his arm around my body instead. He pulled me even closer to him and I closed my eyes.

For a moment, I surrendered. I left behind the life I had chosen and tried to imagine how I could have felt with Jacob. Again, my vision appeared in front of my eyes. Clearer now. More real.

I heard the kids again, saw them. Dark haired, laughing and smiling Jacobs smile, my smile.

Jacob and I were on the porch again, watching our kids. But this time, I was sitting on Jacobs lap, his arms tight around me. We were smiling and again, I could feel and hear my heart beating. I could even feel the warmth of my own skin.

Our faces became clearer to me. I saw how the years had left their marks on my face, but in a way, it didn’t bother me. Jacob looked as youthful and boyish as always, when smiling his “human Jacob” smile.

“I love you.”

It was my imaginary Jacob saying it out loud while rubbing my back. And it was the real Jacob, whispering it into my ear.

My vision vanished and I felt reality again. The grass, the earth, the river, the wind and Jacob.

I opened my eyes and moved a bit, so I could look into his face.

“I love you, too.”

We smiled, knowing that our words meant nothing in reality, but I was sure that he could see it, too. See us together, in a long forfeited future.

My hand moved away from his heart and I rested it on his cheek. No hesitation and no doubt came over me, when I moved closer to him again and softly brushed my lips against his.

I could hear his heartbeat go faster and I smiled against his lips.

When we parted, I felt a little bit of hope inside me. I knew we belonged together, in a way. But he belonged to my daughter now. And it suddenly felt right to me.

“Is this the last goodbye, then?”

His voice was steady, as he brushed my hair behind my ear.

“I think so. But things won’t really change. We just have to leave them behind. Finally.”

“Yes.”

“But that future will always be a part of me. As well as our past.”

“Same with me.”

He kissed my nose and then, let go of me.

I rolled back on my back and stared at the sky again, feeling my surrounding. But I wasn’t lonely anymore. Jacob was by my side now. He would always be. Those memories would never vanish.

“Nervous about your big day?”

I asked with a smile on my face, imagining Jacob in a suit.

He laughed loud, the wolf breaking through and I joined him.

“You wish.”

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Black Sheep

Written by: SmileyFace55
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All Credit goes to the Original Author

Breaking Free

It wasn’t dissatisfied with my vampire and werewolf life. I loved – and was loved by – every one of them. Well except maybe Leah, who was warming up to me gradually. It was just, the only times I had been out in the human world, really out in the human world, were on my monthly shopping trips with Alice, and on family vacations. It was time to break free.

I was going to university.

At first Mother was a definite no. “You’re only five,” she said, “how can you put yourself out there with eighteen and nineteen-year-olds?” But I was the physical size of a sixteen-year-old, and if I compensated for that with my abnormal brain power, who would keep me out of university?

Well I guess Mother could, for one.

It was Daddy who saved me in the end. I was glad for that, once I had my mind set on something it was almost impossible to change, so it would have really broken Mom’s heart if I left without their approval. Daddy argued that I was physically and mentally ready for graduate school. High school was out of the question. I had developed much too quickly to remain inconspicuous, and besides I found the work dull and simple. Daddy won over Mother eventually, but she adamantly refused to be a part of any discussion revolving my upcoming departure. I guess she was just reluctant for me to grow up so quickly.

Of course, there was Jacob for another matter. I loved him dearly – though we weren’t officially dating or really in love love… yet – and it was really hard for me to be away from him. As long as I kept nearby, though, he could visit on evenings and weekends (geez, I sound like I’m grounding myself or something) and everyone would probably be fine. Like I said, nothing in the world would get me to change my mind.

So there I was, in the passenger seat of Esme’s car, on the road for Thorton University.

It was only two hours away from Forks by car (that is, if you’re going at vampire speed). It wasn’t a huge institution, nor was it one of the Ivy League, but it was close, and a starting point. If I survived this, than maybe in a decade or so, I could end up at Harvard!

“So,” Esme said, breaking the silence “Do you want me to tour Thorton with you? Or do you want to go by yourself?”

“I think I’ll go by myself, thanks Esme,” I replied. Mother and Daddy were arriving home this afternoon from a fourth honeymoon at Isle Esme, so it was the island’s namesake who was taking me to visit my future university.

“Of course,” she replied warmly, “It’s the first step to independence isn’t it? And besides, I might go hunting anyways.

I rolled down my tinted window and a tiny steam of June sunlight (muted by the overcast clouds) entered the Ferrari’s dark interior. Esme immediately cowered away from it, and I laughed.

“Oh Esme, we’re in a speeding car, and I think you’re dressed for the weather anyway.”

Esme was wearing dark sunglasses, a wide brimmed hat, and a long-sleeved satin dress. Pair that with a parasol, and she looked like a classy, European supermodel.

“Oh I know, but going about in the summer daylight makes me nervous…”

“You’ll be fine. I can’t say the same for your parasol, though. Apparently the deer here are quite vicious.”

That Girl

As I studied the campus map that Shawn had given me I noticed two things: my future dorm was right across from the library, and the library was enormous. I decided to begin my tour there.

As I strode through the great oak doors, my jaw dropped. There were shelves upon shelves of every kind of writing imaginable! And the space that wasn’t occupied by bookshelves, housed comfy armchairs and long practical tables. I went to the fiction section first. There were barely any modern novels, most were classics by Shakespere, Dickens and many more. I didn’t mind that since the modern novels were sloppy, insignificant fluff about boyfriends and murders. At least Shakespere wrote it with sophistication.

I strolled through the labyrinth of literature, trailing my finger along the worn out spines. I had just entered the non-fiction section, when I stopped dead in my tracks. I sniffed suspiciously. Through the musty library smell, I located a scent much to sweet to belong here. I sniffed again. Nope, there it was. My nose could not be deceiving me.

There was a vampire in this library.

I was vibrating now: who could possibly be here? I must know them, the Cullens knew all the vampires in this area. Perhaps it was Tanya or another of the Denali coven. Could a non-vegetarian vampire stand to be around this many humans? Not quite sure what to expect, I followed my nose around the corner to a long study table.

There she was.

If I hadn’t been so positively sure she was a vampire I would not have known it from her appearance. Her silky black hair was chopped off at her chin and hung into her face. She wore a frumpy cardigan and baggy jeans, no doubt to hide her flawless figure. Thick, ugly glasses were slipping down her thin nose.

She was alone at her table and surrounded by books, even though I was pretty sure exams were already over. It surprised me. I stood there a moment trying to place her. There was no way I had ever seen her before, but strangely, she seemed to remind me of someone. Perhaps she was a nomad. But why then, would she be attending university?

Intent on getting my questions answered, I marched over to where the strange girl was sitting.

“Hello,” I said quietly.

The girl jumped violently, sending up a flurry of pages. The chair groaned in protest.

“What are you doing? You’d better – I mean… it’s not a good idea for you to be talking to me – ” she stopped abruptly. She inhaled and I saw her nostrils flare as she assessed me: my strange scent, my vampire-ish body and most importantly, my steadily beating heart. “Who – ?”

“Hello,” I said whispered again “My name is Renesmee Cullen. I am a half vampire, half human. What’s your name?”

“I – you… humph!” the girl stood up and marched away. “I don’t know who you think I am, but I have no idea what you’re talking about!”

I flounced after her.

“Look,” I murmured impatiently “I know you’re a vampire. You don’t have to hide it.”

The vampire stopped and turned to face me. If we hadn’t been in a library full of innocent bystanders. I would have ran away as fast as I could, what with the look she gave me.

“I most certainly do have to hide it!” she hissed. “Is you indeed know what I am, I suggest you keep it to yourself!” she moved towards the door, but after noticing the sun outside, she cringed.

I immediately knew what I had to do.

“Here,” I rummaged through my bag and pulled out a wide brimmed hat – identical to Esme’s – and a pair of gloves. “These should block most of the sun. Won’t you at least come and talk? I’m dying to know more about you.”

“Well,” she eyed the hat before snatching it up with her marble hands. “Fine then. I’ll talk, but you had better do some talking yourself! My name is Karen, by the way”

“It’s a deal.” With a wide grin of success on my face, I opened the door and led my soon-to-be-best-friend outside to the courtyard.

Surprises

Edward’s POV

Bella and I were lounging on the couch after returning from Isle Esme. My Bella’s face was worried. I knew it was because of Renesmee. She was touring Thorton University today, and it hurt Bella to be separated from her daughter for such a long time. University next year was going to be tough.

“When is Renesmee due back?” she asked Carlisle, who was immersed in his reading.

“Any minute now” he said casually “Esme said they wouldn’t be back after six.”

Suddenly I heard the thrumming of a familiar engine far out on the road. It was Esme’s Ferrari.

“That’s them.” I said.

Bella made an urgent move to get up but I put a restraining hand on her shoulder.

“Independence, love, remember? We have to let Renesmee come to us.”

“Independence, yeah right.” she grumbled, but never the less, remained in her seat.

While Bella glowered, I turned my mind to Renesmee’s thoughts. It was an old habit. My daughter’s thoughts were so interesting. They changed so quickly, I had to treasure them all I could. While I listened, a smile tugged the corner of my lips.

Home sweet home! Oh I am so glad to be back… and Mother and Daddy will be back to… I can’t wait to show them my surprise! Wait, oh no, I can’t think about that now! Daddy will hear me… butt out Father! Okay then…Oh they’ll love her so much!... aargh! Stop! Think of something else…umm…let’s see… trees… yes, trees… I do like trees… There are such a lot of them on the road. I can’t wait until the leaves change colours… why do they do that? I must have learned about that once upon a time. I wonder if Karen – wait! Aargh! I’m thinking about that again! Stop it Nessie! … okay okay… trees… no I already did them… um… well I can see the house now, Mother isn’t there for once… maybe she’s letting me be independent after all… Thorton is going to be so much fun in the fall… hopefully Kar – RENESMEE! I mean, umm… I’m not thinking about the surprise! No I’m not! Aaargh… I just hope Esme is doing a better job than me…!

So they were bringing home a surprise. I blocked my daughter’s thoughts from my mind to give her some privacy. I heard the car pull up in the driveway.

“Well, love, I guess we can go out and greet them now.”

Bella was out of the house like a flash.

Revelation

Karen spent most of the drive sitting in the back seat with a neutral expression on her perfect face. I tried to be sly, taking a peek every little while to judge her reactions, but she always caught me. It was impossible to tell if she was excited or scared, but I had the feeling she was more apprehensive than anything. I could live with that. I had convinced Karen to come and meet our family at least. If she liked them (and more importantly, liked me), she was invited to stay for the summer, and then go back to Thorton University with me in the fall! If not… well how couldn’t she love us?

Meanwhile, Esme and I had a game plan. First I called my Jacob to make sure he was hanging around, so Alice wouldn’t be able to see that we were bringing Karen home with us. It broke my heart, though, when I instructed him to leave before we got back. I didn’t want Jake to get hurt if Karen over reacted. Or if Jake over reacted for that matter.

Next, we filled Karen in on most of our family. The size of our coven scared her a little, and she was quite shocked when I told her about everyone’s special abilities.

“I’ve never actually met any other vampires besides you two,” Karen admitted sheepishly. I was a little surprised at that.

“Who changed you then?” I asked suspiciously “And how did you know that you’re a vampire?”

“It’s a long story…” Karen said, “And if I’m going to have to repeat it to the rest of your coven, I’d rather only tell it once.”

I had the feeling she was just stalling.

When we finally pulled into our driveway, I was bursting with excitement. I was trying my best to block my thoughts from my father, but they all ended up coming back to Karen, and the surprise. Hopefully he wasn’t listening.

“Renesmee!” Mother called, as soon I was out of the car.

“Mom!” I cried and a second later, I was in her arms.

“How did you like university?” she asked underneath my iron grip that would have broken a human bone.

“Enh, it was okay…” I lied.

“Just okay?” she looked surprised as I released her.

“No!” I rolled my eyes “Actually it was great! Come meet Karen!” I grabbed her hand and pulled her over to where Karen was hesitantly getting out of the Ferrari.

“Who – ” Mother asked, then stopped as she caught sight of my vampire friend.

“Umm…. hi.” Karen said timidly, and then looked to me for support.

“Oh, this is Karen Sterling,” I announced clearly. Father, Carlisle, Alice and Jasper all had come out to see the new girl. “I met her at Thorton University. She doesn’t hunt humans, so I invited her to stay with us for the summer.”

No one objected, in fact, they seemed quite happy.

“Hello Karen,” Mother said warmly, shaking her hand, “How are you?”

“Great, thanks,” Karen replied timidly.

“Come inside and we’ll talk,” Carlisle called to us, appraising Karen thoroughly from afar.

“So,” Carlisle said once we all were seated, “Where are you from, and how were you changed?”

“Well,” Karen started, looking around at all of us. Mother, Father and I were crammed on a couch; Alice and Jasper were in front of the old fireplace; and Carlisle and Esme were in matching armchairs. Rosalie and Emmett were on vacation.

“I was born in nineteen-eighty in London, Ontario. My parents were writers, so they traveled all over the USA, as well as Canada, while I stayed in boarding school in Mississippi. I was sixteen when they died. It was a small ferry crash in the Caribbean, very quiet. I didn’t find out until three days later. They were working together on a project this time, it was set in Barbados.”

I felt a wave of sadness crash over me. Who was I to have this perfect happy life, and know someone who was surrounded by such sad memories?

“I was devastated. My parents were the most caring people in the world. Even though we couldn’t spend all our time together, I received volumes of letters every month and in the summer; we toured across Europe or other foreign parts of the world. I had had the best life ever. School had just ended so I stayed with my grandmother, who lived only a couple miles away. I spent the first few days locked up in my room crying. I didn’t even go to the funeral. One night, a week or so later, I was walking home from the store with some groceries when I was changed. I don’t really remember too much of it. I thought that I had died and was in heaven with an angel. Then there was pain, a lot of pain. I burned for a while, and when I awoke, I was behind a wall of crates in an alleyway. I don’t know why the vampire didn’t finish me off, the only conclusion I could come up with, was that my blood tasted so horrible that they couldn’t bear any more.” Karen’s voice shook for a second; I walked over and patted her back. Surprisingly, she didn’t flinch away.

“I didn’t know what I was for days after. When I realized that I wanted to hunt humans, I ran away to the woods. Some deer were there and I compensated with animals. I was so disgusted with my desire for blood that I tried to kill myself by starvation. It didn’t work the way I had hoped, so I spent over a year hiding in forests, hunting animals.”

I noticed Carlisle’s eyes were shining with awe, and I knew why. Karen’s story seemed very close to his own first year as a vampire.

“Once I thought I had myself under control, I dared to venture out into the human word to learn more about what I had become. I discovered that while I was reading, or concentrating on any sort of writing, I was better able to control my thirst. So with that new knowledge, I’ve been living in various universities ever since. I use the name Ellie-May just in case the police are still looking for me, and as long as I stay inconspicuous, I blend in with the others.”

There was silence. Karen raised an eyebrow, looking for some sign of approval or acceptance.

“Impressive,” Father said, breaking the tension.

Everyone seemed to be on the same wavelength. Jasper was looking a little doubtful at Karen’s claim to supreme self-control, but Alice was looking downright happy, as usual.

Carlisle was nodding thoughtfully.

“Your grandmother,” he asked “What was her name?”

“Cynthia Hayes.” Karen replied promptly. I could tell she was rather perplexed with the irrelevant question. To tell the truth, so was I.

“Your great grandmother, then, do you know her maiden name?”

“Well I don’t really remember,” Karen said irritably “I never met her.”

Daddy gasped silently and flashed a glance at Carlisle. I wondered for a second what he had heard. It must have been something important though. I pressed my palm to his arm, a quick gesture, but enough to ask a silent What? He only nodded to Karen, who was still trying to remember.

“Her name was Margaret I think… Margaret Bailey, no, not Bailey. Maybe it was Blanchard… Everything is very fuzzy and hard to remember.”

“Brandon,” Alice gasped “Margaret Brandon.”

The room went silent. Everyone turned to face Alice. No one dared even breathe.

“Yes, it was Brandon.” Karen frowned, “How did you know that? I thought it was the other one that read minds.”

“Because,” Alice breathed “She was my sister.”

Suddenly everything clicked into place. I knew that Karen reminded me of someone, and that someone was Alice. That was what Carlisle had suspected, what Daddy had heard in his thoughts.

Karen Sterling was Alice’s great grandniece.

Alice looked like she was going to faint, if that was possible for a vampire. She slowly rose to her feet, walked over to Karen, and touched her cheek with one pale hand. They stood there, looking into each other’s eyes, then Alice gave a peal of laughter and threw her arms around Karen.

“Oh my goodness!” she cried “My niece! My family!”

Karen looked equally shocked, but very pleased at the same time. I looked over at Carlisle, who sat back in his chair, looking a little smug. He caught my eye and winked. Esme, Jasper, Mother and Father were all staring at Alice and Karen with faces of shock and amazement. It was Mother who recovered first.

“Well,” she joked, “I don’t think Alice saw that coming!”

There was a ripple of laughter and agreement. Alice detached herself and danced towards me, an enormous smile dimpling her cheeks.

“Oh Nessie!” she said happily, kissing me on each cheek “How can I thank you enough!”

“Who, me?” I asked, perplexed: What had I done? It was Carlisle who had figured it all out.

“You brought Karen home to me.”

Oh right, I had done that hadn’t I? Not it was my turn to feel rather smug. It was because of me that Alice was meeting a member of her family, who was immortal as a bonus!

“Don’t forget, I was the one driving the car.” Esme piped up. Alice laughed and embraced her as well.

We were all like one happy family.

You’re in love with a WHAT?

If I had been in Karen’s place then, I would have known what it felt like to be a bug under a microscope. Or at least I would have felt supremely awkward.

The rest of our family was assembled out in front of the house, watching as Alice and Karen chattered away at a ridiculous speed, perched up on Emmett’s favourite arm wrestling boulder. It was obvious now the family resemblance between them. They both had the same silky dark hair, the same thin noses, and almost identical smiles. Alice was still a head shorter though. It was like watching a movie, but in fast forward mode. All their movements were lightning quick and their lips were all but invisible. I didn’t see what the rush was; they had all the time in the world – literally.

It was then that I realized with a start that during the past hour I had forgotten the singular most important person of my existence: my Jacob.

Father laughed. “You had better not let your mother hear you thinking like that,” he chuckled under his breath.

“Thinking like what?” Mother frowned at me “Renesmee?”

I was saved from that awkward conversation by the abrupt ringing of my pink cell phone. Grinning, I dashed away from the group to get some privacy. It was wonderful, the way Jake and I had this telepathy thing going on. I only had to think about calling him, and he would call me first.

“Hey!”

“Nessie?”

“Jacob!”

“How are you? What was with that surprise thing? And can I come over now?” he was always full of questions – most involving my overall well-being.

“Yes, I’m fine, and you will never believe this! I met this vampire girl at university and brought her back – that’s why you had to stay away – but it turns out she’s Alice’s niece! She was changed a couple years ago and I reunited them!” I didn’t mean to brag, Jacob would understand.

“Whoa, seriously?” I could just picture the appalled look on Jake’s face as he took it all in.

“Yes! Do you think I would lie about something this important?!”

“Wow, I guess not. This is crazy! You guys just keep multiplying! First Bella, then you and now her. I hope the pack isn’t affected.” there was a hint of worry in his tone.

“Oh stop worrying. Anyway, when can I see you? It will only take me a couple minutes to get over there if I run. Unless you want to come here…?”

“I don’t think that will be necessary.”

What? What are you talking about? I don’t understand.” I stiffened, was he upset? I thought I was more important to him than the pack…

“Turn around.”

I turned, and there he was. He clicked his phone shut, tossed it aside, and opened his arms.

“JAKE!” I screamed and launched myself at him. He caught me out of the air and gave me a crushing bear hug.

“Don’t you ever do that again.” he murmured “You know how much it hurts.”

I knew what he meant: staying away from him hurt me as well, but my will power weakened it so I was able to cope. Or at least cope better than Jake. I wrapped my arms tighter around his broad shoulders and leaned against his chest, inhaling his warm woodsy scent greedily. It was so confusing – I loved Jake, but I wasn’t in love with him. Jacob leaned forward and kissed me tenderly on the forehead, like he had done so many times before. The difference was, this time a shiver went up my spine. How odd, maybe I was in love with him after all…

“Jake? Is that you?” My mother’s voice rang clear as she came to join us. Jake immediately released me. Our regular PDA’s – Public Display of Affection – made her a bit uncomfortable, and that made me a little jealous.

“Hey Bells,” Jake said conversationally “How’s Katherine, or whatever her name is?”

“Karen,” I jabbed him in the gut with my elbow, he didn’t even flinch. Darn.

“She seems very nice, and of course Alice is thrilled.” Mother replied happily “I’m thinking she can stay with Renesmee until we get an addition built to the main house, you don’t mind do you?” she asked me.

“Oh gosh no!” I cried passionately “She can stay with me for the whole summer. Of course we’ll be off to university next fall anyway.” I smiled slyly.

Mother blinked. “Oh right.”

“Is she and Alice done their conversation? I want to introduce her to Jake.”

“Umm… are you sure that’s not a bit too quick?” Mother frowned at me uncertainly.

“Or do you just want me to leave now?” Jacob said sarcastically.

No!” I snapped, grabbing Jake’s hand “Jacob’s staying. So is Karen.” And with a firm set of determination on my face, I dragged Jacob over to Emmett’s favourite arm-wrestling boulder.

“You’re in love with a what?” Karen cried. She was lying lengthwise on my huge bed, her bare feet propped up on my pillow, staring at me incredulously.

I was perched on my headboard, my kneed pulled up to my chest. My bed was a lavish affair purchased soon after my third birthday. Alice had chosen my ‘little kid’ bed but after a couple years all the pink gauze had gotten in the way of my sleeping, so I picked out something new and more practical. I now had a lavender comforter and pristine white sheets that kept me cozy on even the chilliest of nights. My wooden headboard had been hand carved with my name – Renesmee – surrounded by sprays of ivy and honeysuckle. I absentmindedly traced the patterns while Karen and I chatted.

“A werewolf,” I said simply. Jake was outside now with the rest of my family, waiting for the right time to be introduced. I had thought it better to break the news in private.

“But… how…?” Karen stuttered. “He looks like a normal guy. I don’t understand.”

So I had to explain most of it to her. How Jake could phase and how in a ‘normal’ world werewolves and vampires were mortal enemies but my mother and I had brought them together. Then I had to explain the imprinting.

“So basically,” Karen said once I had finished, “You guys are, like, destined to be together even though your first instincts are to kill each other.”

“Well, yeah – I guess.”

“This world is crazy.”

“Tell me about it.”

“So now what? Do I get to meet him formally or something?”

Sure, I hopped off my bed and went to the window. “Jake! Karen wants to formally meet you!” I hollered.

We went outside slowly. Karen had promised not to lose control when Jake phased, but I was still worried. I knew my family would be able to restrain her, but the thought of Jacob in danger made me tremble.

“Okay, ready?” Jacob said hesitantly, his arms out protectively in front of him even though Karen was twenty feet away.

“Yes.”

Alice had pinned Karen’s arms behind her back. It was even more worrisome since Karen had been completely deprived from vampire contact throughout her existence, so no one knew how she would react to a werewolf. Alice hadn’t been able to predict an attack, but we all knew, Alice’s visions were subjective. I had to do everything in my power to keep my Jake safe.

I should have known that all the worry was for nothing. When Jacob phased, Karen’s eyes widened in shock, but she made no move towards him.

“Jacob wants to know what you are thinking,” my father translated for him.

“I’m surprised,” she stuttered “And I’m trying to figure out of that horrid smell is you.”

Father chuckled quietly.

“Yes, that would be him.”

Karen wrinkled her nose. “I don’t know how you can stand it all the time.”

“We try,” Alice laughed as she released her niece’s arms.

I sighed in relief as Jacob dashed off to the woods to regain his proper form. So all the secrets were out now. We had permanently gained a new member to the Cullen family.

The only thing I wondered now was how long it would take before Alice gave her a full body makeover.

Victim

“Hmmm… what will I do with you, now…” Alice sang as she danced around a terrified-looking Karen, brandishing a pair of lethal looking scissors and an enormous hairbrush.

It had only been three days since I had brought Karen home with me and, of course, she had to pass Alice’s assessment on if she was presentable enough or not. As I had expected, with her blunt unflattering cut and frumpy clothes, Karen needed some work done.

“Some longer layers might look nice,” Rosalie suggested helpfully from the doorway, She and Emmett had returned from their vacation yesterday, and were thrilled by our new family addition. Emmett had bet me that it would be less than three days before Alice got to Karen, I had bet on more than three. I had lost. Alice had said as she marched down the long Cullen staircase and had stopped in front of Karen, and said ‘I’ve put up with this long enough, but I can’t stand it anymore. You. Are. Getting. A. Makeover.’

“I’m thinking that too.” Alice said thoughtfully. Then she frowned and her eyes defocused for a moment, before blinking an returning to the present. “Nope, that’s not going to work,” she said “I saw it. It’s not good. How about…”

Alice spent the next ten minutes pinning up various parts of Karen’s black hair. She searched for the outcome of her newest idea, before muttering darkly and then playing with another bunch of hair. It was fun to watch: Alice going from future to present and back again. But it gave me a headache.

“Well,” Alice said finally “I’ve exhausted all the options. As much as I don’t want to do this I’m going to have to take desperate measures – I’m going to have to give you this,” she gestured sadly to her own spike ‘do.

“I’m getting a cut like yours?” Karen asked.

“It’s the only thing that will look nice,” Alice frowned for a second. She didn’t like the idea of someone else having the same hair as her. “But,” her face brightened “Then we can be twins!”

We – Karen, Rosalie and I – all laughed.

Alice adjusted her razor sharp scissors in her hand and began to chop away.

A minute later, we were shoved out of the room by an adamant Alice. “I want it to be a surprise,” she said before shutting the door.

It wasn’t like we didn’t know what was coming since Karen and Alice would look identical with their matching cuts. But Alice was her own force of nature when she wanted something a certain way, so Rosalie and I waited in Alice’s bedroom until we were summoned.

Even though Alice was my favourite Aunt, I would never tell Rose that. She was the one that stood up for me when everyone else wanted to kill me – yes, Jacob had told me everything after I requested details. Mother, of course, was furious, but Jake couldn’t help himself with the whole giving-me-everything-I-want-when-I-ask thing. I had forgiven Rosalie for willing to forfeit my mother’s life for mine (I was special after all) but she never seemed quite so lovely after that.

“So Nessie,” she said conversationally, “Have you and Karen made plans to go back to university in the fall?”

“No, we haven’t talked about it yet. I think she might though, since it’s pretty obvious she’s not going to leave the family.”

I thought about it for a while. Karen couldn’t possibly stay while I was away. She was my best friend after all, even though she was technically family. The thought of Karen here – taking my place and all the attention – without me, was disturbing.

“Hmm… that’s good –”

“Rose!”

“That would be Emmett, I guess I’d better go,” she said ruefully and breezed downstairs.

I wanted to be the first one to see the new and improved Karen, so I waited for the next fifteen minutes in Alice and Jasper’s bedroom. I paced, I fiddled with my bronze curls, I twiddled my thumbs, not wanting to disturb any of the perfect organization. Unfortunately, my range of vampire abilities didn’t include sitting still. Finally, after I read all the names of the CDs on the shelf twice, Alice called me in.

“Ta daaa!” she cried, gesturing to Karen, seated in front of the mirror.

If I hadn’t known it wasn’t Alice in the chair I would have swore it was. Sitting down, you couldn’t see the height difference, just the back of a spiky black head. Karen turned to face me and her grin was electrifying.

“W-o-w,” she said. “I look… great!”

“Of course you do,” Alice scoffed. “I did this after all.” She began to say something else, but was cut off by Jake’s voice, echoing up the stairs.

“Nessie…” he whined “Are you done yet?”

I rolled my eyes, but wasn’t really annoyed. “Come on, Karen, let’s introduce the new and improved you.”

Change of Plans

The person’s who’s face I was the most anxious to see was Jasper’s. I wondered how he would react to a sister-on-law that looked almost identical to his wife. Fortunately, he only nodded approvingly as Karen descended the grand staircase with me and Alice behind her. I guess love didn’t have everything to do with appearance. But I knew that already.

“You look lovely!” Esme gushed when she saw Karen for the first time.

“It is an improvement,” Rosalie commented “Not… that you weren’t pretty before.”

“I know, I know,” Karen rolled her eyes “I looked like a hag. But now that Alice is finished with me, I actually feel pretty!”

“I don’t think Alice is totally finished with you…” Mother winked “You’re only redone from the neck up. Your clothes still need to be sorted out.”

I grinned. Karen was now wearing a pair of my mother’s faded jeans and one of my green cashmere shirts. The pants fit okay, but the shirt was a size too small. It really emphasized her curvy frame, but I didn’t think Alice would go for it. And I knew that Karen felt guilty having to borrow clothing from me, Mother, Rosalie and Esme (Alice’s clothing was way too small for her neice).

“Oh, Nessie,” Alice said abruptly, “Can I talk to you for a second?”

“Sure,” I replied and followed her into the kitchen. Alice looked… uncomfortable. It was very odd, I had never seem Alice look like that before.

“Umm… So you know how we’re going shopping in Paris next week?”

“Yes?” I asked eagerly. It had been tradition every since I turned two, for Alice and I to spend a week in Europe, shopping. We didn’t buy much, but it was expensive!

“Umm… about that,” Alice paused and grimaced “Do you mind if Karen comes?”

“Sure! That would be awesome?” I cried enthusiastically. Then I paused. Why was Alice looking so guilty? All we needed to do was get another ticket–

Oh.

“You can’t get another ticket, can you?”

“Well, I checked, but there aren’t any available at such short notice.” Alice said unhappily “But I could always call back and bribe the pilot to get her on, it wouldn’t be that hard! It’s just in case… Karen really needs new clothes! I mean, she can’t keep borrowing all of ours! I hoped you would understand that…”

Disappointment surged through me. Of course Alice wanted to take Karen along with her – and I had a sneaking suspicion that it wasn’t just about the clothes. Alice wanted to spend quality time with her niece didn’t she? Time that would be ruined if I tagged along. Alice must have foreseen that.

“No, it’s okay, go with Karen,” I heard myself mumble “You’ll have a good time together.”

“Are you sure?” Alice’s eyes were wide with apprehension “I’m sure it would be no problem to get you a seat too, I feel horrible asking you to do this.”

“It’s fine,” the voice from my mouth said louder, “It’s only clothes anyway. We can go another time.”

“Well, if you’re sure,” said Alice “I’ll go tell Karen!”

After Alice left the room, trying to hide her satisfaction. I stood in the kitchen for a while. Shut up! I had wanted to tell the voice that was speaking for me This is not okay! I am not fine! How could Alice do this to me! These aren’t just clothes! This is about my relationship with Alice! I won’t have it messed up by Karen!

Still fuming inside, I turned, and went out the side door, calling Jacob on my cell.

“I’m going hunting, meet me in the woods,” I said abruptly, and hung up before Jake could say a word.

“Renesmee?”

I sighed, I should have known this was coming. Father was waiting for me, alone. No doubt he had heard the whole conversation and my thoughts.

“Hi,” I said resignedly.

“I’m so sorry,” said Father “Do you want me to talk to Alice?” he opened his arms to console me but I brushed him off, stalking towards trees. Father didn’t follow.

I knew I shouldn’t have brushed him off like that, he was only trying to help. But Father was always understanding too understanding. He should have told me that I was being selfish, that I was only thinking of my own happiness and not of Alice and Karen. I didn’t care if he heard that, I didn’t care if he was hurt. I was feeling… I didn’t even know what I was feeling at the moment, but I wanted, I needed, to escape.

A wolf Jacob met me at the edge of the woods. I only had to be with him and I could feel my fears dissolving. We didn’t speak – as Jacob physically couldn’t – but only ran and hunted. There were a group of deer nearby and I took down two immediately, filling myself with the warm delicious blood.

A while later, when we were ready to return, I heard footsteps echoing in the summer stillness. It was Karen. She ran gracefully over to us and stopped a couple meters in front of me. She seemed distressed even though I could tell she was trying to hide it. Great, she looks even more sad than I am, now I’ll probably end up being the bad guy…

“Renesmee… Alice explained what you did for me and I am really very grateful. You aren’t mad, are you?” she appraised my indifferent expression, I tried to make my response light:

“It’s fine, really. Well sure, I’d love to go shopping in Paris, but I think you need it more than I do.” I secretly hoped that she did pick up on the insult.

“No, it’s not fine! I’m here feeling horrible because I took your trip away form you an you’re saying it’s okay, when I know inside it’s not okay!” Karen stamped her foot, making an enormous hole in the ground. I wouldn’t be surprised if it triggered an earthquake nearby.

Her voice seemed so sincere, I suddenly felt guilty. Here I was, trying to remain the center of my family, while Karen was trying to build a relationship with her aunt, who I wasn’t even really related to. I decided then and there that the trip didn’t matter at all. Karen was my best friend, and – even though I hadn’t had a best friend before – I knew that I couldn’t be selfish.

I ran up to Karen and put my arms around her.

“Oh, I’m so sorry,” I said “Let’s pretend this never happened. I wouldn’t be able to bear it if you hated me, especially when we’re off to university in the fall.”

“Thank you,” her voice rang out sincerely.

“Well I guess I’m all done for today,” I ran over to Jacob and planted a kiss on his shaggy cheek. “I’ll see you soon okay?”

Jacob darted off into the woods and I turned to run back with Karen.

“Our first fight,” Karen said, was it… proudly? “I’ve never had a best friend before so I’m rather happy to have someone to fight with.”

I rolled my eyes “If you could even call that a fight. We weren’t even yelling or anything! What a disappointment we are…”

We laughed together, and our laughter sounded like music or a birdsong.

“Hey, do you want to watch a movie tonight or something?” Karen asked “We can chat about our crushes – well, you can talk about Jacob, and I can make something up; we can tell our most embarrassing moments; we can play truth or dare, or fear factor or something; and we can see who can stay up the longest!” she winked, I laughed “It’ll be just like in the books and movies!”

“Sure!” I grinned “Except I don’t think that sleepovers are meant for vampires. Key word, sleep.”

“No problem, You can do the sleeping.”

“Then I’ll dare you to drink a can of soda.”

“And I’ll dare you to eat a bag of chips.”

We both made faces.

“Fear Factor here we come,” I grumbled.

Black Sheep

So the sleepover turned out to pretty great after all, and I did end up eating a bag of chips. Mother suggested plain ones – they had been her favourite as a human, and had the least flavour – but after I finished, I had to go to the freezer (always stocked with human food, just in case) and rinse my mouth out with whatever blood was still frozen onto the rock-hard, icy steak. It was rather disgusting, but at least it got the gross chip taste out.

By one-in-the-morning I was pooped. I could not understand how the normal humans could stay up all night, like I had seen in movies. So, grudgingly, I said goodnight to Karen and my parents, then slumped to my bedroom, yawning continuously. My cozy sheets formed a snug warm cocoon around my body and it wasn’t even a minute before I fell asleep.

It seemed like a second later I was waking up. The sky was still dark, as I could see through my window, and the alarm clock on my night table glowed 4:27am. I tried to roll over and go back to sleep but after a couple seconds tossing and turning my patience ran out.

One little sheep… two little sheep… three little sheep… yawn… four little sheep… God, this is getting boring… Umm… When I consider everything that grows… Holds in perfection, but a little moment… No, Shakespeare wasn’t going to help me. So instead of counting sheep or reciting sonnets I resigned myself to simply lie still and wait.

Some voices in the kitchen caught my attention.

“… I’m so happy that Nessie has a vampire friend her own age,” Mother was saying.

“I’m really glad to have met her,” Karen said sincerely “I can’t really remember having best friends as a human, so it’s nice to have someone who isn’t family that I can have fun with.”

“Yes, well I hope you don’t have too much fun,” Mother teased “I would like my daughter to learn something when you’re at university in the fall.”

There was a bit of silence. I tried to make my breathing sound regular in case anyone was listening, but no one made any notice that I was conscious.

“About that…” said Karen, “I’ve been thinking about it and I’m not quite sure if I want to go back in the fall. I’ve been spending my twelve years as a vampire in school, and I’ve just found a home here. Alice is a darling and I love her to bits, and I don’t think that I would be happy away from everyone when I’ve just met you all.”

“I see…” Mother’s tone was concerned and a little shaper than before “Have you told Renesmee about this?”

“Not yet, I’m still figuring it out.”

“Well I think you should tell her as soon as she gets up. She’s been looking forward to the fall ever since you’ve met and I think the news would be a terrible heartbreak to her. I don’t like admitting this, but Nessie is quite spoiled and isn’t used to anything going different than she had planned out in her mind. After the fiasco today with the trip to Paris, I think it will put her over the edge.”

I plugged my ears. I didn’t want to hear any more. Karen wasn’t coming to university with me in the fall. Mother thought I was spoiled. I knew deep down that that statement was the truth, but mothers weren’t supposed to say that about their daughters! Especially to a girl that hadn’t even been with my family for two weeks! I didn’t notice, but my eyes had overflowed with tears. Damn teenage hormones, I thought reproachfully, If I weren’t for them I wouldn’t be over reacting like this!

Soundlessly, with the instincts of vampire, I slipped off of my bed and leaped out of my window into the night and started running.

There was the beginning of a faint orange glow on the horizon and I knew I only had an hour or so left until morning. My feet knew the way easily so I could concentrate fully on my own unhappiness.

Alice loved Karen more than me.

Karen loved Alice more than me.

Mother thought I was spoiled.

Carlisle was more fascinated with Karen (it was true, I had caught them speaking about Karen’s vampire history and self-restraint only yesterday).

I was five years old and already my family had ditched me.

I wasn’t even a vampire for God’s sake!

I was the black sheep of my family…

I tried to sort out my emotions as I ran. I couldn’t quite say I was sad, or angry, or depressed. I felt myself hating Karen and all the trouble she caused for me, at the same time as I felt a deep longing for something I couldn’t put my finger on. I didn’t really hate Karen, just all the attention she was getting. And what did I long for? With a start I realized what this meant, and why I was having such trouble coping with this emotion. I was jealous!

Now that I said it, it seemed perfectly clear to me. In my five years, I had never had any competition for my family’s affection. They all doted on me and I basked in the glow of their love. Now there was a new girl to change all of that. But at least, I knew there was one person who’s love would never change, and I was headed to his house in La Push right now.

Jacob was snoring when I tapped the glass of his bedroom window, just hard enough to get his attention. His eyes snapped open, and upon seeing my tearstained face, was out of the window in a flash and had me in his arms.

“Nessie… Nessie,” he crooned, hugging me, “What happened?”

“Oh, Jake,” I sniffed “It’s not bad, really. I’m just so jealous of Karen, and it’s making me feel sick! How I can want more and more attention from everyone when that’s really being terribly selfish…” I sniffed a few more times, and Jacob took my hand and we walked through the woods and down to the shore.

The waves were light and foamy and the breeze was warm, so we cuddled in front of an enormous piece of driftwood and I poured out my irrelevant, teenage woes. Most of it was silent, as I pressed the palm of my hand to Jacob’s cheek and replayed the scene’s with Alice, and the one I had just overheard. Of course, it had been perfect to pick Jacob for this. He knew exactly when to say something that would make me feel better, and how to hug me that would warm me all the way to the bottom of my heart.

“That’s it,” I said as I pulled my hand away from Jacob’s cheek “That’s how I’m feeling right now… unloved.”

“Well I love you,” Jake said huskily, but there was something in his voice that had never been there before. I turned to him, lifting my face upwards, trying to figure out what he was thinking. But I stopped as Jacob slowly leaned his head down…

And touched his lips to mine.

I froze. Jacob had never kissed me like this before. He had kissed me, of course, but never on my lips. Jacob kissed me on my forehead, my cheeks, my nose and even my hand when we had played dress-up and I was the royal queen. But never on my lips.

Jacob and I had never been in love. We loved each other, but we weren’t in love love like my parents were, or like Sam and Emily. But now that was changing. I felt a new kind of love hit me like a ton of bricks. And it make me feel tingly right from my head to the tips of my toes and the bottom of my heart. I didn’t even remember Karen and the pit of despair I had been in only moments before. The only thing I thought about was reaching up, and pressing my lips to his once more.

Enough for Eternity

I was running through a field under the blazing sun. My skin was glowing as I leaped through the tall grass and flowers, moving towards something unknown. A second later I recognized my family, all together with arms open to embrace me. My smile widened and I quickened my pace, eager to reach them sooner.

Then something passed me from behind. With a start I saw the figure of Karen speeding ahead of me, towards my welcoming family. I watched as she reached them first and was enfolded in a loving embrace. It wasn’t me they were waiting for after all. I stopped dead in my tracks as Karen, accompanied by the rest turned and melted through the trees, the sound of their happy laugher ringing in my ears…

“Renesmee Carlie Cullen get up this instant!”

I started. This wasn’t a part of my dream – or should I say nightmare. Confused, I replayed the words in my head, trying to find some meaning. My brain seemed to be working at a sluggish pace.

“Renesmee Cullen if you aren’t up in one second I will be very angry!”

Angry. That wasn’t good. But my father never woke me up in the mornings, why should he be yelling at me today? I instinctively moaned and rolled over onto my side groping around to try and find my pillow to cover my head with. Instead my hand touched something hot… too hot. My eyes snapped open.

The first thing I saw was Jacob, snoring peacefully, his sweet, kissable mouth open ever so slightly. His long dark hair falling messily into his beautiful face. Then I swiveled around to find my father’s comparatively unhappy face staring down at me. I looked past him into the sky. It was still dark out, even though I saw the faintest glow on the horizon. My instincts told me it was just before five in the morning. I hurriedly ran over my recent memories to find some explanation for this bizarre situation, and the memories came, good and bad.

I was in deep trouble.

“Good morning, Renesmee. Did you have a nice night?” My father asked icily.

“Umm…” I tried to find words that would redeem myself, but none came.

“Get up. And don’t wake the dog. You have got some explaining to do,” Dad turned and started walking in the opposite direction. I hastily got up and followed.

Dad explained that Mom had noticed my absence three hours earlier when she went to check on me. Immediately realizing I was gone, my family searched the woods all around the property and, after no avail, Mother got it into her head that I must be with Jacob. Then they had to track down Sam, and make sure they had permission to cross onto the La Push territory.

“Bella is in a fit of worry,” Father muttered as we ran through the trees “She had no idea where you were and of course began imagining all sorts of unpleasant things. She thought you might have been sleepwalking and fallen off a cliff, or had been kidnapped. I don’t know what possessed you to run off like that!”

“I can show you if you want,” I whispered reluctantly. The story was bound to get out eventually. I was being very careful not to think about it in case he got the wrong idea; showing would be the better option.

“I’d like to see it.”

We slowed to a stop and I pressed my hand to his, letting the memories of the previous night flow through me and into him. The continued up to when I was with Jacob on the beach. I stopped abruptly there, and withdrew my hand.

“You see now?”

My father still didn’t look happy, but he wasn’t as angry as he had been before.

“I understand now,” he admitted “Not that I quite understand your reaction, but I at least know what triggered it.”

We began running again and didn’t stop until we had reached our little house.

Karen’s POV

Renesmee was getting on my nerves, and that was an understatement. I had been so worried when she had disappeared like that, simply to find out later that I was the reason for all this trouble. Not a very nice thought. And I wasn’t the one being jealous and stubborn. I tried to avoid Renesmee for the next couple hours, but she cornered me in the living room, and I wasn’t about to jump through a wall of glass.

“I’m really sorry,” Renesmee apologized “I didn’t mean to! I just over reacted a little… it was probably just some teenage hormones! Can’t we still be best friends?”

“Oh stop blaming it on the fact that you’re a teenager!” I snapped involuntarily “You’re jealous and everyone knows it. Why don’t you just get over yourself and suck it up?”

That stung. Renesmee’s eyes widened and then narrowed.

“Fine. I guess since you’ve made your decision, I’m going to make mine. I’m not going to university in the fall either! I’ve got Jacob now. I don’t need you!” she stalked off.

I turned and stalked off in the opposite direction.

Renesmee’s POV

I expected Karen to be angry, but not that angry. What she said stung, and I wasn’t used to being insulted. So I shot back that I wasn’t going to university either. Actually, I hadn’t thought before I said that, it just slipped out. But when I thought about it later, it made perfect sense. Now that Jacob and I had entered another phase to our relationship, it would be all the harder to stay away from him. And I wasn’t up to the challenge.

So I guess Karen and I aren’t the best of friends after all.

But who cares? I have Jacob now, and that’s enough for eternity.